Loves Him*

2009-09-16T20:27:00.003+08:00

wow it's been a very long time since i last blogged!

few things on my mind:

HOGC experience is coming up next week & it is truly an experience!!

love the whole growing process, but really love the team as well. feel very privileged to be chosen to work it out the first time round. there are certain people that really makes me happy to work with too, i.e evonne! she is so amazing & whoever marries her will be so blessed! heh kidding! :) but really, seeing how Pastors is so personally involved in the entire process when they could so simply called garrett & yassy to run the whole thing makes me so proud. our Pastors always trains the next generation & i know it because they chose a totally new batch of people to run this whole thing. i'm glad i have Pastors who believe in me, who believe in new people, who builds people up from scratch. that is the heart of God church experience, i wished Pastor Jamaal could see all of this. THIS is the heart of heart of God church, it is the heartbeat of God, the heartbeat of Pastors.. love my Pastors :)

on the pastoral end, d1 is amazing in it's own ways & i really love the whole dynamics. there's a strength within & i can't explain why!

huishan, beryl, mabel, huimin, cherie, jerlyn, alvina, pollyna, wanting, samteo, jovina, joy wee, colin, marcus, jin kiat, cheng ming, felicia, howteng, eunice, jerome. - you guys are amazing!!!

thank you for always holding up the people when i'm not around, thank you for your never-ending sowing into the people's lives no matter however tired you are, however broke you are, however busy you are.. d1 will never be where it is today if not for you guys.

andy kan is one person that made me really happy throughout the past week because i saw how he changed. he woke up at 5am last sunday because he had to come for the 630am BMT & he was on for projection duty. but it wasn't just about that.. it is the way i see a sparkle in his eyes once more. it is that familiarity all over again and i feel like i know him and i really really do now. there's no more holding back, constricted thoughts, tugging of feelings etc. it is all so God and i really love this clarity. i don't know if you'll ever see this but thank you andy for making the decision to fight for God :)

deborah msg-ed me the other day & asked me if i could disciple her because she was impacted by what garrett shared during BMT about discipleship.. i saw it & i was so moved. hey, when someone approaches you for discipleship, that person is serious about growing spiritually in the house of God! i'm so proud & happy :)

there's many others rising up & they all make things happen so it's all very good. sam woo has broken out of her quiet self and has been talking so much nowadays i love it! joy wee tried to master how to make a strawberry shortcake 3 times in a week so she could give it to lynette before she left for LA..

jovina called up her whole class one by one to ask them if she could shift the remedial day away from friday when she realised she could not make it for the leaders meeting at 730pm as she had a remedial at that time. sam teo did not ask her to do it but she took her own initiative to call them up one by one, and then told her teacher after that to move the remedial to another day when the class can make it.. SHE CAME FOR LEADERS MEETING THAT DAY!!!

the entire CEG came together to hold a bday celebration for jin kiat & he brought 13 new friends on that day! marcus planned the whole celebration despite the fact that his bday was just next to jin kiat's bday but he selflessly planned for jin kiat instead of his own!

i love how we are one family despite being a hundred. i love how we all love God and love people. i love it how we all love Pastors and honour them. i love how at the end of the day, the people blend in so well & there's such a great culture and DNA. love God, love people!

having e odds is so cool because you get to hang out with the people & you constantly see God's hand upon their lives. just took the worship session earlier with the leaders & i teared at the very first part of the meeting because God spoke so clearly to me where all this was going. it's pure faithfulness & commitment to carry on this wednesday routine for the past 5 months at the very least, but God was building them.. & that's all that matters. i love doing the grind, i love spending time with them in God's presence, bringing them back to Him.. God moves, God really does!

& that is how i'm going to do it.. meeting the prcs group weekly to pray & seeing their lives get changed by God. i know He has a plan for this school & i'm anticipating a revival. just hearing them talk about how they secretly lay hands on their friends and pray for them silently makes me excited. prayer sparks off revivals, we just need to believe in that!

have been spending so much time with the leaders as well & just believing for them to catch the intangibles. mondays are really "spend time with people" days. daniel tay is our monday buddy because he loves late nights with garrett.. chloe, maryse, adri, jemquek comes along whenever they are free so that is really good.

so you see, there are no secret formulas at all. it's really all about the people. when you start to live your life thinking for them, things start to change. God's heart is always for them and we just need to see it that way. i love it when there is a touch of God upon all that we do.

of course, the good old times with jiayi, yolanda, samteo, felicia are the best. hung out with them at holland v's crystal jade that day and we just talked and talked about everything in our lives. i love jiayi so much & i always get excited when i see her, like literally i get excited, i jump up, & i run towards her! ha ha ha. love hanging out with these people because they are long time friends man! 5 years!!! can't believe jiayi is leaving for london again soon.. :( somehow this time round when she came back, i felt so much closer to her.. so that means i'm really going to miss her when she is gone.. ahhh. can't wait for end of year when she is back again!! :)

last but definitely not the least.. i've often told people that there are 2 G's in my life that i cannot live without - God & Garrett. it has always been this way & it will stay the same. i'm really so glad for garrett because he gives the best advice all the time. i'm so glad for him because he is the only one who is so brutally honest with me.. i'm so glad for him because he will pray with me, inspire me about reading.. i'm so glad for him because he is the only one who'll eat supper with me at 3am, go for breakfast at 9am, surprise me with salads etc. :) also very proud of him because he has changed so much from the person he was last year to the person he is right now.. still can recall all those noob moments we had last year HAHAHAHA seriously funny :) but anyway, he's the best of the best! righto! now i just need to psycho him to go exercise with me more often!!! he has this secret plan to make me lose weight by reaching church at 1055am every morning so i have to run up & clock in by 11am!! evil evil plan!! ha ha ha!

but seriously speaking, i'm so glad for garrett because he is the only one who will go crazy with me in the morning to buy balloons to surprise people. he's the only one who will travel with me to one end of singapore to buy food to surprise other people. ah, it's this whole surprising thing which many people cannot catch up with, BUT HE CAN! :) YEAH. so that's a bonus plus plus point :) love God, love Garrett!

so that's all the things that's going on in my life right now! tried to summarize it as close to my heart as possible, alright gonna read "chasing the dragon" now! BYE!

2009-07-05T02:16:00.002+08:00

i just had my most amazing discipleship class i just had to blog about it.

Jinyi

Cheryl Yeo

Debbie pang

Bong Tingli

Yong An

Christina Chan

Wei Cheng

Pansiri

Mel Wong

Sok Min

Dilan

thank you for being the best people ever.

it's inspiring to inspire you guys! i love it!

you guys were so hungry you drew everything out of me, so amazing..

alright, now i'm excited to see these batch of ppl go out to love psts & their ldrs..

heart impartation heart impartation... wooooo :)

2009-06-30T00:14:00.003+08:00

love is a decision, it's not just a feeling or an emotion.

when you make up your mind that you're going to live a life for others, that decision moves from your head, to your heart.

it's almost as though your heart hooks up & makes a pinky promise to stay on, to keep doing the things that you are doing despite doing it for months or even years.

there is such sweetness when you love others, i cannot begin to describe enough. you feel satisfied, fulfilled, & it's an unexplainable joy. every time i push myself to love selflessly, i feel a breakthrough inside. when i do it all over, it becomes a recurring breakthrough. it's amazing, & yet very addictive. that's why i keep doing the things i'm doing, it's a cycle that i can't get enough of.

anyhow, just wanted to say that Pastors are amazing, i could go on and on but here's one that happened to me recently.

last sunday, despite Pst How being so busy, he texted me in the morning to encourage me about a couple of things, then asked me for samteo's hp no so that he could text her to encourage her. later on i found out that he even twittered about us going to malaysia to visit our people! how cool is that? :)

today, garrett & i brought albert & iris to eat tian tian huo guo at bugis. i love bringing people out for meals because i recalled how in the past, Pastors would often bring us out for meals & it all meant so much to me :) it's always nice passing down Pastors DNA.

anyhow, albert & iris are such awesome people to hang around with. just being with them makes everything worthwhile. just thinking about them brings a smile to my face.. albert is going to become a leader one day, iris as well. i see so much potential in them, they are the hope of the next generation!

haven't had the time to go out with every other person, but i sure do hope i can do so every now and then when i have the time. it's very special how all these meals work out to be so much more than just food. it's the bonding & connection, i absolutely love it!

alright it's getting late. i'm going to disappear to appear before God. He loves me so much that's why i wanna love Him back right now! such awesome life to be living in, keep loving your life guys!

2009-06-17T09:26:00.002+08:00

just a short post before i rush off to shower & change & get to church.

so tempted to blog because of the many thoughts i have in my mind..

garrett's really amazing!! i guess i don't have to say this many times, but he really never fails to amaze me.. i rushed down to hear him preach at zone G & E revival svc last night & he just totally blew me away with his preaching..

what blew me away was not just abt him being super duper anointed, but the way he still gave his 200% despite his flu & cough.. throughout his preaching he was coughing away, but he did not complain one bit.. he just went on & delivered a v powerful sermon on the solomon generation..

it's so impt to be with someone who inspires you daily!!! :)

now, who are the people who inspires you daily?

that being said, i really miss psts & lynette!! gosh, i've been following their twitter everyday & the more i read their twitter, the more i miss them!!! can't wait for them to come back soon!

life without psts & lynette pushes me to a whole new level of carrying the burden.. taking responsibility, taking ownership.. like what garrett mentioned in his sermon, it's not just Pastors' church or Pastors' responsibility but ours!! :) don't just wait for your Pastors or leaders to push you, but carry it on your hearts.. heart of God church is OUR church!!!!

man, so excited to go to church now! we're changing the world..

2009-06-14T13:09:00.000+08:00

The study of our character is the study of our patterns & habits.
- A.R Bernard

2009-05-25T02:56:00.004+08:00

loving the team i am in..

the past two days of red rain was rocking!!!

seeing how the ops & events team do it together makes everything a lot more special.

it feels very sweet to have garrett around & i learn abit every time he works. woooo :)

all ready to chiong for the pastoral side now!!

seed sowing, lives changing..

met the d1 rangers just now & it's all v good.. we laughed alot & everyone was happy :)

we also realised huishan has a new boyfriend (tsktsk) & samteo can give an altar call in hokkien!! (she calls God her LIM BEI!!!)

what a funny group of people when everyone comes together.. no one makes sense anymore.

there's such uniqueness in all of you & i'm happy to be in a funny family of friends.

just thinking of yolanda + viknesh + samteo = classic!

on a side note, ezone leaders are so cool, so proud of them :)

just went out with adri, jemquek, wendyneo to surprise gab at his house w geylang beef hor fun.

they are the best people to be around with, super good team of leaders we have :)

despite wendy having bible sch the next morning, or adri having sch, jemquek having work.. they all just decided to surprise gab because they knew he was v hungry!

love seeing them love one another.

the bond is getting stronger & unbreakable..

nothing can come between anyone anymore! (stupid devil)

anyway, how can we forget maryC right! i just went to check out her blog & her latest blog post abt idealism vs realism is very cool.. pls go check it out if you have the time!!!

http://simplyclassy-sami.blogspot.com/

zhuoxinyi, your team is growing like maximum too & i'm so happy for you :D :D :D

this is a dream team man. i can't wait. ezone is going to grow & nothing is going to stop us.

p.s// very happy to see alan lee zhuolun, desmond woo, clara wong, & roy the past two days.. it's unexplainable.

2009-05-06T00:10:00.002+08:00

haven't been blogging for abit but decided to come back alive since i've just had my last huddle for the day & i'm feeling all accomplished & happy :)

waiting for garrett to finish his last meeting of the day & then we'll be munching on the sushi pieces that felicia bought for us, v v sweet of her really. (garrett says thank you too... )

just been feeling such a strong burden for the finances of our church.. knowing that this is OUR church, & taking full ownership of the $70,000 every mth becuz we know it is not pastors' responsibility or the adults' responsibility all the time, but we the youths got to rise up to be givers in this house.

love my Pastors so much because of how much they have sowed into this church. they literally gave up everything to build this church. EVERYTHING. right up till today, they are still giving so much just to build this church. it's so amazing how Pastors never ever grumbled about giving to this church. never. you never hear them complain about them sowing their whole lives to building this church.. for us.

breaks my heart when some people don't treasure Pastors.

sometimes it's so funny how we ask God to build this house for us, if not we'll labour in vain. it's funny because sometimes people are not even willing to labour, & it makes me wonder why would God build the house if we do not even labour :S

argh! we just got to go through the hard work and just WORK!!!

(Garrett says: AMEN!)

2009-04-15T23:08:00.002+08:00

had CG with E3 CEG today & it was so good :)

the girls are really great.

sokmin's game was v messy & v fun & we all laughed our lungs out.

wendylee couldn't take over announcements properly becuz she was trying to catch her breath, but she was v cool.. i laughed abt it w the CEG & we all turned to our neigbours to imitate her.

mel was superb w her offering & she shared out of all her revelation of her heart.

peckhoon was v v anointed while worship leading, it was so easy to get into His presence.

wendyneo helps to arrange everything nicely for you so you can go in & be v comfortable with everything running by itself.

a super good team. the power of teamwork!

God came, i'm so addicted.

nowadays i'm just all over the place but God just leads the way. i love it!

maryse, zhuo xinyi, adriena makes me smile all the time.

seeing them the way they are now, bit by bit, slowly slowly i get so excited.

COOL. life can be so great with all these people around!

what more can you ask for? :)

2009-04-08T01:19:00.003+08:00

few things to update.

last sat we had re-meeting for the pastoral meeting &. charleston was leading. he was qt thirsty so he asked me for water. when i stepped out of the room, i saw yao hui outside so i asked him if any of them had prepared water for charleston, but the next thing i knew, a cup of water popped out from the corner of my eye. they brought it into the mpr2 for charleston.

the sweetest thing was when i walked downstairs, yao hui came up to me and asked me what was charleston's favourite drink. when i asked him why, he said it's because charleston is thirsty and he wanted to buy for him a drink. he then proceeded to take out all the coins in his pocket and counted them on his hand and then said that it was enough to buy charleston a drink, and whether it's okay to buy 100plus for him, whether charleston will like it. i was so touched by this incident. yao hui is cool man.

e zone planned a welcome party for charleston & myself on sunday, it was v sweet. i guess i felt it was just gd to see all the different CGs come together & have fun & hang out together. it was a gd switch in the atmosphere. the food was good, the emcees were funny, the games were cool, the people were spontaneous, the gifts were sweet.. i really enjoyed myself thoroughly. thank you guys :)

sat next to nelia on sat & held her hand & jumped with her during praise. can't remember when was the last time i did that but it was pretty long ago, feels so good all over again. she made my night, totally!

sat next to ee chan on sunday. so happened to pray for her during altar call, v v touching i felt. God really spoke to her. :) cool stuff.

monday was well-spent with my favourite people on planet earth. i can't believe myself too but monday was real cool. i love admiralty! anyway, i cut my hair short!!! can't convince myself till today, but yes, i did. come for easter service if you want to see it HAHAHA.

i love my Pastors!!!!!!!!! they are the coolest people on planet earth. cooler than any prince or princesses wooo!!!

that's all!

love your life guys!

2009-04-04T11:44:00.005+08:00

peeks from mum's bday! :>

we went to the line @ shangrila woo~

v awesome food, v awesome service..

spent the entire night with my family!

love your family, be a gd testimony!

2009-03-28T09:59:00.004+08:00

my life is greattt! how about yours? :)

yest morn i met the girl power leaders in ezone!

they are all very cool. ha ha.

got to know them alot, it was pretty hilarious.

zhuo xinyi is scared of tortoises, do you know?!

maryse has this signature :> pose that is duper hilarious.

oh & welcome home adriena!

she came back from the dusty land of HK, very very dusty!!!

this week i pretty much chiong-ed outings.

next week shouldn't be very much different, but i like! :)

i like being on the ground, knowing about the people!

be interested about people's lives! it's sweet :)

so that's that!

saw Pastors in the office yest and was so happy :)

texted Pst How to tell him that we all missed him, ha ha.

i think i'm so used to having my Pastors around all the time that when they go overseas, i feel a little funny on the inside. (miss them a lot la)

COOL! E'odds is gonna grow! i feel the buzz! E'evens also! woo!

d1 let's grow and breakthrough too!

this week's service is gonna be great!

jeremy quek's bday is tmr, go wish him happy bday if you see him!!!

have the best life on planet earth,

have the best people around me!

BYE!

2009-03-23T21:13:00.004+08:00

i had a REALLY exciting day today! :)

sent my beetle for repair in the morning & headed to raffles city to meet maryse!
we chatted abit & she found out alot!!! cool cool..
then headed to cathay to find wendyneo!

in the middle of everything i msg-ed alot of people.. OH MAN.
i sms-ed so much until i lost track of the people i was msging..
so if you get late replies from me, i'm very very sorry!
was busy multi-tasking.. so yeapp! :)
i know i've also asked many people out.. ha ha ha.. hot dates 1 2 3!!
so geh kiang.. i asked finish already then realised this week i'm qt packed h ah aha.

ANYWAY!!
highlight of the day was definitely playing L4D with maryse, fion, garrett, keith, pak cheong!!!
we played 3 VS 3 so we kept switching ard from zombie to survivor mode, v v fun!

also SUPER fun cuz keith keeps saving us when we kena attacked.
maryse & fion kept killing me, they are crazy serial killers man..
poor pak cheong always get bullied by us.. haha.
& i've come to realise that maryse's CG owns the game man.
like srsly, OWNAGE.
they are all super good players ha ha ha..

tmr's gonna be good as well!!!
i've been thinking alot, praying alot, planning alot.
just so excited looking at the things i've penned down..
alot alot of anticipation & expectancy, can't wait!!!
shall keep you all in suspense.. ha ha ha..

there's going to be CG this week!!! woooo!!!
YES SOKMIN I CAN'T WAIT TO HAVE CG WITH YOU GUYS TOO :) :) :)
it's going to be great!!!

.. & just so you know, you are dearly missed, d1 dazzlers :)
seeing you do your cheer for lynette on sunday cracked me up totally. ha ha!
once a d'wonder, always a d'wonder!! :D

2009-03-01T09:53:00.003+08:00

introducing to you..
the adventures of skinny girl and muscular guy.
so yes! this was what happened.
on a bright & sunny wednesday morning,
i couldn't take it anymore & founded jamie's sports & wellness club!
specially invited yo & colin into it & they agreed! :) :) :)
COOL!
we had our first outing to ngee ann poly the next day & ran like nobody's business.
yolanda ran till she fainted.but.. colin was still fit & funny.
of cuz i must have been pretty alive to take all these pics of them ha ha.
running w them is the best thing on planet earth :)
i'm so glad we ran; i'm so glad we ran together.

we took 154 back to church together & talked abt some stuff.. ha ha.
got to church, bathed, then we all had lunch together!
colin went to parkway to get us koi bubble tea so we were all v happy !!!
mannn, being on staff, having them on staff, is awesome :)

i love my healthy life!
i love my healthy friends!

2009-02-27T00:44:00.000+08:00

“Sometimes, fate has a cruel way of putting things together. Maybe it’s better if people just give up when there’s no point in fighting for something anymore. When the ship has finally sailed, only a fool would go after it when it’s already miles away. But sometimes it’s a lot better to be a fool to go after what we want and need, rather than to regret everything in the end because we never even tried.”

— Captain Jack Sparrow, Pirates of the Caribbean

2009-02-26T22:43:00.002+08:00

see, there are some things in your life that you've got to fight for yourself.
today was just one example of that one thing i never knew how to fight.

it was a battle that was torn in between myself but more than that,
i genuinely felt broken on the inside.

fight for me as i've fought for You.

jealousy & insecurity are two very powerful words.
honestly it can cause one to do very crazy stupid things without much careful thought.

blindfolded not in the eyes but in the heart,
we end up hurting the very people who once loved us & cared for us.

without the bad, you don't see the good.
without the sweet, you don't taste the bitter.

it's so much harder than i had thought.
but once i pull through this i know i can tell the world a story.

there are some things you just never ever do,
there are some things you just never ever let go of.

just because.

so at the end of the day,
it really pays to be idealistic.

& to even start guessing what i'm talking about is minimally impossible,
except the one who knows all things.

hang on.

2009-02-21T08:39:00.003+08:00

how to make twins!! :>

stayed over in church last night,
Pastoral AMT @ 8am this morning,
preaching in CCH later,
prep w charleston before that,
dzone leaders meeting at night.

felicia came to church today w a bag of old chang kee in her hands & exclaimed "jamie i bought you a chicken wing!!!"

i was SO happy :>
im in love w OCK's chicken wing :>

on a slightly similar note,
the CEG bought 2 kong ba paus for me yest 2gether w a tube of chocolates,
saying that it is to replace my kong ba pau car, & the chocolates were the wheels -,-
srsly, they are the sweetest people alive :>
out of this world, this universe.
u guys r aww-some.
so glad to be in d1, yay.

anyhow, i'm back to my sermon already.
4 languages of love.

have a rockin' weekend guys :>

2009-02-11T12:13:00.002+08:00

exactly three days ago...

hi dominic, thank you for taking this picture w us although you were busy running ard talking to ppl, but cheng ming still pulled u along because we really love our zone leader & this means alot to us, three cheers for you!!! :>

alright! let me talk abt my super zone leader now.. ha ha!
i'm so impressed & amazed & in awe of him becuz last week, he was just chionging on outings, being at zone D's meeting, helping me with my sermon, preparing zone F sermon, preparing his sermon for Pastoral AMT (b) & being in church on sunday @ 730am for it etc.
we were joking tht he can be a sermon producing machine alrdy ha ha.
anw, all this is in addition to him having sch every morning @ 830am!!!!
& rushing all his sch projects as well!!!
pure madness man, no joke at all.

i'm so inspired...
so that's my zone leader for you! :>
my very anointed & super zai zone leader!!!
he doesn't carry his blackberry ard w him just becuz it's a cool statement,
but he replies all our emails to him almost on the spot!
yesterday he was just sharing w me abt my pt B & what i shld focus on in this season..
wht i can do w my ppl & abt the sec 2 boy who gave $500 for heart fest!

so you see, that's a week in the life of a zone leader for you! :>
be inspired.

2009-02-04T01:02:00.006+08:00

monday's leaders meeting was transformed into a bowling outing!!! :)
we had so much fun it was unbelievable!
huishan was the top scorer & she plays it stylo-milo way.
alan & colin & i shld just play our own game & we won't look too bad, ha ha!
andy almost threw himself into the lane together with the ball.. we were so worried.
mabel turns ard & sweeps her hair when she scores a strike!
we all tried to pose like the other bowlers before throwing the ball, but failed miserably..
some dropped the ball even before throwing it into the lane..
it was plenty of laughing at each other, but no bad intentions, just really really funny.
you shld have seen how we cheered for each other whenever someone scored!
we were practically like lil bowling fanatics in our own worlds,
everyone else there was curious why we were having so much fun ha ha hahaha.

i love spending time with you all!!!
let's throw money away again soon!!!

sun night out

2009-02-02T13:21:00.004+08:00

last night, sunday night out = gd food, gd company !!!
had 2 follow-ups in church & drove down to newton circus with valtock, samteo & denghuimin to feast!!!
ha ha ha! the food was BAGUS! :) :) :)
all of us shared the OH LUA (oyster omelette), SAMBAL STINGRAY, BBQ CHICKEN WINGS, CHICKEN & BEEF SATAY, CHAR KWAY TEOW, BLACK CARROT CAKE, ACCOMPANIED BY MY FAVE FRESHLY SQUEEZED LIME JUICE !!!

in true s'porean language.. best bester BESTEST!!! :)
ha ha ha.

anw, don't think all the d'zone leaders all come together just to eat man!
we had a v v serious talk as well on the zone & came up w many ideas on bringing it to another level!
gotta carry the zone in your heart wherever you go!
it was v v exciting & thrilling & we're all anticipating for this thurs cuz its gonna be v v awesome! :)
if you're going, expect your life to be changed!

internship has finally come to a close & there's just a whole line of events & things i wanna do!

im finally FINALLY able to meet the leaders earlier on mondays!
no more monday night meetings!!!
now its early like 330!!! woo~
really excited to come back into the CG to work things out.
entangle knots, solve problems, spend time with the people..
i'm back to ZHNG the CG!!! :)

tmr there's gonna be meeting w charleston from 630 to 8, 8 to 10 & then 10 to 12 whoopedoo!

gotta rush out now! fish in water always feels better than ever!!!

2009-02-01T12:38:00.003+08:00

aww u all really live up to ur name, CEG of love! :)
thx for all the sneaking ard to try & surprise me,
really made my last day of internship end on a sweet sweet note! :) :) :)

YEA!!!
IT IS FINISHED !!! :)

2009-01-26T17:53:00.003+08:00

i was contemplating doing a CNY post but since everyone else is doing it, i shall not! ha ha! who needs to know how many pineapple tarts you've eaten & how many KG of bak kuas you've gobbled down right!

this CNY, aside from all the food & catching up w relatives, i managed to catch up w God too :) more than just the BRP, i think it was a gd time for me to prep myself before i ended my internship & start on w a new phase of my life.. working for my dad part-time & volunteering in church part-time.

so many thoughts have whizzed past my head the past few mths of how i'm going to walk through this mountain & valley & know that i'm walking in the will of God & not walking in my own ways of what I want to do, but God, what do You want me to do?

to actually know that this is really going to be me stepping out of the comfort of sch & earning my own money & saving it, & trying to be more independent w every single part of my life scares me a little. my parents have asked if i would be able to support myself w the little they are going to give me, & i struggled a yes. i guess, it's really quite a big step for me, but i'll try. i know if i want it bad enough, i'll definitely find a way to make it happen.

tht aside, i'm very, very excited abt this next part of my life. being 21 is one thing, but doing great things when i'm 21 is another. i'm really glad for my life, it's like no other :) be happy for your life, it's such a pain nitpicking at all the things you are unhappy about. i think sometimes we fail to see all the gd things, & we end up forcing ourselves to be happy with the little we think we have. looking back at my life, i think God has blessed me with much, in fact sometimes i think too much, ha ha, so i choose to be very happy with all of tht :) :) :)

so happy now.. but i know tmr is gonna be an even better day! :) :) :) :) :)

2009-01-23T11:20:00.002+08:00

part & parcel of growing up 1 2 3 .

thank God for technology... for skype, for webcams, for handphones.

:)

Pastors are away together w garrett & the rest of their family.
the leaders & staff are all at KL happily eating away.
fifi has flown off as well together w 2 others.

i think it felt really unusual yest morning,
was trying to find names of people to ring up but mostly they aren't around, v v strange.

CG was great tho, v ministering, v inspiring :)
its gd to pray, i love praying, i love seeing God move in His mighty ways.
we dwelled just tht lil bit more in His presence to soak it all in.
i love it when smth so intangible becomes so tangible.

internship is ending soon, lets celebrate together.
God encouraged me this morning, i had a gd talk w Him :)
patience is a gd virtue, in any & every area of your life.

happy CNY y'all :)

2009-01-21T05:57:00.003+08:00

hello, its 6am.
& i just got back home from a duper long meeting with dom & the other CGLs @ pgsm.
mama, its sucha crazy lifestyle we're living.
okie right now,
i will look through all the plans & programmes for tmr's reunion dinner,
then sleep and wake up in an hr's time to get ready for work,
then rush down for the zone reunion dinner as soon as work ends!
okay all that is gd & it shall be gd, cuz i said so.
everything is falling into place so nicely.. cool stuff :)

shuyi & jieru was in my kong ba pau car when i was telling them how this lifestyle is smth i'm gonna train myself to get used to.
really want to push myself to another level now, so yknow what that means.
meanwhile, im really sleepy & tired right now so i better catch a wink before chionging all over again..

a night in the life of jamie, ha ha ha.

see you guys, hope you have a great day!

2009-01-20T10:37:00.002+08:00

we took these minutes before stepping into 2009! everywhere was so chaotic but we still managed to gather everyone together in a few secs, grab a camera from don't know whose hands, & quickly snapped the last shot of 2008.

it was so much mad fun, everyone was screaming into everyone's face & whoever was holding on to the clapper became slightly high & overly excited... look at the first pic! our mouths are all open, so super hilarious cuz we were in the midst of joining the rest & screaming away. :)

i love the CG, really! :) you guys make everything awesome.

i love my church! i'm so going to grow up in this place for the rest of my life!

p.s/ hello LUCY, if you're reading this.. do you see yourself?? hehehe.

GOODBYE NEW YEAR, HELLO CHINESE NEW YEAR!!! :)

2009-01-13T10:23:00.003+08:00

so excited for CG to be starting all over again.
the first CG of the year, it's gonna be great! :)
lynette will also be doing a short sharing in all our CGs, can't wait to hear that!

i went to TCC with yolanda last night & we were supposed to be doing our own work.
but guess what?! we ended up eating !!! :<
i ordered this vege extravanganza nonsense & it made my tummy feel funny.
there were pumpkins (loads & loads of them!) as well as chick peas as well as brocolli.
of course i was more interested in the mozarella cheese topping !!!
yo ordered a salmon pasta & she said the sauce tasted funny.
aww man, not a very nice meal afterall >:(

k, i really REALLY can't wait for attachment to end!
12 more working days, HIP HIP HURRAY!!!
i'm beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel..
God is the epicenter in the midst of this horrible earthquake.

i don't think there are any limits to how exciting we can make life seem.
each day brings about a new anticipation & understanding.
more than just wanting to do life, you want to attack it, conquer it & taste that sweet victory.
it's always drawing you into the whole cycle of life, but you just never ever get tired of it.

last but definitely not the least,
what's on your heart right now??
take a step back & think about it,
always good to have insights about yourself ;)

back 2 work nw! :>

2009-01-07T12:07:00.001+08:00

my zone, my family of friends.

2009-01-02T16:28:00.004+08:00

those who think their chinese is bad, you ain't seen nothing.

1. 题目 : .. 一边 ........... 一边 ............ ..
小朋友写 : 他一边脱衣服 , 一边穿裤子 .
老师评语 : 他到底要脱还是要穿啊 ~~

2. 題目 : 你看
小朋友写 : 你看什么看 ! 没看过啊

3. 照样造句例题 : 你 ( 唱歌 ) 我 (跳舞 )
小朋友写 : 你 ( 好吗 ) 我 ( 很好 )
老师评语 : 你在写英文翻译吗 ??

4. 照样造句例题 : 别人都夸我 ( ) ，其实我 ( )
小朋友写 : 别人都夸我 ( 很帅 ) ，其实我 ( 是戴面具的 ) 。
老师评语 : 什么面具这么好用 ???

5. 题目 : 陆陆续续
小朋友写 : 下班了，爸爸陆陆续续的回来。
老师评语 : 你到底有几个爸爸呀 ?

6. 题目 : 欣欣向荣 - 比喻生长美好的样子。
小朋友写 : 我的弟弟长得欣欣向荣。
老师评语 : 孩子，你弟弟是植物人吗 ...

还有一个更瞎的 …
小朋友写 : 欣欣向荣荣告白。
老师评语 : 连续剧不要看太多 ~~

7. 题目 : 谢谢 .... 因为 ......
小朋友写 : 我要谢谢妈妈 , 因为她每天都帮我写作业 ......
老师评语 : 原来你的作业是妈妈写的 !!!!!!!

8. 题目 : 难过
小朋友写 : 我家门前有条水沟很难过。
老师评语 : 老师更难过 ......

9. 题目 : 天才
小朋友写 : 我３天才洗一次澡。
老师评语: 要每天洗才干净 ~~

10. 題目 : 又..... 又 .....
小朋友寫 : 我的妈妈又矮又高又瘦又肥。
老师评语 : 你妈妈...... 是怪物吗 ?

2008-12-31T10:22:00.003+08:00

i've always enjoyed the teamwork in d1,
be it the way we grow & grow but we're still so close,
or the way we always help each other out with each other's pple despite being madly busy with our own schedule.

there's something to say about every CGL, every TL, every PTL - they all love teamwork, they all have the "let's do it together!" mentality, they all go through thick & thin, blood sweat & tears to make it through for a breakthrough.

you see, at the end of the day, it's not so much of whose team grows faster, whose team is the most spiritual, whose team is the most happening.

if one falls, the other supports.
if one drops, the other covers.

we all make up for each other : d1, d10, d11, d12.
take away one CG & it's never gonna be the same.

i'm happy with the way things are right now,
but i'm not satisfied.
let's grow BIGGER & s t r o n g e r !!!
the ties that bind will still be so very special.

2009 is gonna be super duper crazy.. let's raise up more leaders, let's birth forth more connect groups!!!

in anticipation.

2008-12-30T09:26:00.004+08:00

fight for the things you love
& love the things worth fighting for

last night was qt a different night.

spending time with Pastors always makes everything else amazing.
the food was fantastic, the show was hilarious, the company made everything worthwhile.

we went back at 2am & i was in my night-time reflecting mode again..
it's really such a privilege, how far we've made it through.
being right where i was, meant the world to me.

before i went to sleep, i sat on my bed looking out of the window.
i looked at the entire night view outside & thought abt the magnificence of God.
it was beautiful.. the way everything came together.

i stared up the sky, telling Him all tht He ever needed to know.
it so happened i was at my tipping pt, so i spilled the beans.
there's no pretense before God.

it wasn't planned, the way the tears just flowed.
then, it was then, i felt a great gush of His presence.
i reasoned it out within myself.. the air was still, the air-con was off, the trees were not blowing,
yet there was such an immense surrounding air tht came ard me & comforted me.

lost for words.
i questioned aloud if it was God, knowing alrdy it was Him for sure.

glorious Jesus, so intimately personal & near to me.

2008-12-29T02:14:00.002+08:00

i know God is bringing me through more than just one level of testing,
He must have known my limits before bringing me through all of this.

it can only get better.
look at how far we've come,
we can't give up now.

work in a few hours,
i'll wake up earlier to run,
& talk to God while running.
haven't done that in a long, long while.. miss it.

103 guys, let's march into the hundreds together forever.

ps. thk u to all those who made me happier w all the chocolates, ramly burger, banana, cards, sweets, cookies, cakes, cushion, what not. merry belated xmas, it was sweet & definitely v special.

pps. ure welcome jiayi, it's so much fun sending u home! daytona is my fave game don't u know? when ive got no time to go to the arcade, i usually use my beetle as a sub! D; D; D;

ppps. sis's bday was qt a blast, will post pics up when im free! (mission impossible part 10) happy 24th sis, yknow i luv u so much even tho im hardly ard to say so!

MAN, i wish my holiday will never end. ok bye!

2008-12-24T14:54:00.002+08:00

you know it's awfully heart-wrenching when service started at 130pm and you're still sitting at your office desk counting down to the time you can dash out of the office to your car to singpost's carpark to the white gate, and then to the place where you see life, hear life, feel life, breathe life.

AHHH ... i can't wait!!!

anyway,
merry christmas eve folks!

you know where's the most happening place to be at so be there or be square!
don't wait, don't hesitate!

JOIN US!!! :) :) :)

2008-12-23T16:42:00.004+08:00

making every single lousy thing okay again,
giving me the best,
working it like magic...

meant the world to me, thank you :)

it's so undescribable & intense, one more week to breakthrough.
that silent, still confidence that pricks me, it's so hard to contain.
let's hold on tight, we'll make it together hand in hand in His hand.

yest i finally realised why i'm so pleased at things the way we are.
it's a team, we cover up for each other.
not everyone performs, but everyone is closely knitted together.
everyone loves, everyone cares, everyone looks out for one another.

family of friends, we always say.

it's v v sweet, i like you all, dee wonders.
you don't know how special each & every single one of you means to me.
how much more to God??

play hard together, work hard together too okay?
i don't believe we cannot pull through this together.
growing up together, doing life together, breaking through together.

ready ? get set , go .

stepping into the hundreds.

2008-12-18T02:17:00.000+08:00

whether we make it or not depends not just on me alone,
it's a team effort.

i can keep trying but it's not the same,
we all know it's not a game.

c'mon, just a little bit more, just a little longer, just a little further...

it's so close to the weekend already,
saturday, i can so breathe you over and about and all around.

breath-taking.

p.s D1, i've just coined you all a name. you shall be called the wonders aka D1-ders.

oh yea, happy birthday joanne :)

2008-12-16T02:17:00.001+08:00

had LCA with dominic & lynette earlier,
it was fantastic beyond words.
they really told me what i needed to grow in & showed me how some things that are not happening in my life are hindering me from growing.
so it's all very good :)

really thank God for my leaders, they make me who i am today.
we were talking about the jamie that was two years ago,
& i laughed. ha ha ha. hilarious jamie.
can't believe i changed so much, seriously.
wouldn't want to imagine how jamie will be like without hoGc.

oh wells.
can't wait to breakthrough, it's really very exciting..
now i feel as though i've found the key to the challenging lock i've been working on for the past two months.

you know how it's like when you finally found the method to level up when you're playing your game? like that secret code thingy?
i think i just found mine!!!

amazing, now i get to go to the bonus level to earn more points, ha ha ha!

besides that, i just wanted to say that it's such a privilege being in d zone.
lynette was sharing about how she felt about me last time & the change in me right now, & i'm just so glad God just pulled me along to where i am now.
it's alot of growing in God, plus the people around me of course :)

can i also add that LCA was super edifying??
about being a SCGL, about CCH, about everything i was doing.
i not only knew what i needed to grow in, all my strengths were strongly re-affirmed.

mannn, i love my leaders :)
can't wait to preach in CG tmr, it's gonna be so so good :)

till then, thank you for following my posts, ha ha!
loyal readers 1 2 3./ v v amazing you all are.

let's grow in God together,
i'll see you at the end of the race, yes? :)

2008-12-15T17:49:00.002+08:00

Nokia recently revealed the results of a global study into how people find their way around ... read on to find out the results Singapore scored.

Summary

Singaporeans take the longest to get back on track once lost than any other nation in the world. That’s according to the findings from one of the largest navigation studies to date into people’s sense of direction and navigational habits, conducted by Nokia, in 13 countries around the world including Singapore.

The Singapore results are fascinating not least because they blame their poor sense of direction on bad memory – 94% of those surveyed admit to getting lost at some point along a journey. Having such bad memories, it is no surprise that Singaporeans are the worst when it comes to giving the correct directions, with half of them relying exclusively on paper maps to find their way from A to B.

Full research highlights detailed below:

National Key Facts:

Singapore is a disorderly nation, with 2% claiming to take up to two hours to find their way when lost

Proving to be spontaneous, over a quarter (26%) of Singaporeans don’t plan their route before head out, the world’s highest

Over half (55%) of Singaporeans can’t be trusted to give correct directions to lost strangers, the highest across the globe

Showing their forgetful side, one in five (21%) of Singaporeans blame their poor memory for getting lost

Uncharacteristically lazy, one in ten (9%) Singaporeans admit they can’t be bothered to work out the correct route

Technophobes, Singaporeans are the most likely nation to rely on paper maps to get from A to B (46%)

Regional Highlights:

Bedok key facts

When it comes to enjoying their spare time, residents in Bedok are the most likely in Singapore to miss dinner with friends or a film at the cinema (22%)
Revealed to be the most confident city, two thirds (66%) of Bedok residents rate their sense of direction as good, the highest across Singapore

Bukit Merah key fact

One in five (20%) residents in Bukit Merah prefer to use traffic lights as points of reference to direct lost strangers
Proving to be a sleepy city, over a third (39%) of residents in Bukit Merah blame tiredness for getting lost

Hougang key facts

A third (29%) of flustered residents in Hougang panic when asked for directions, the highest in Singapore

Sengkang key facts
Sengkang is the most disorderly city, as 3% of residents claim to take up to two hours to find their way when lost
Revealed to be Singapore’s worst map readers, with a quarter (23%) of Sengkang residents admitting that they are unable to read maps; but luckily they are the most likely in Singapore to rely on sat-nav or mobile mapping (19%) devices to get from A to B

Bukit Batok key facts

Bukit Batok is the most organized city in Singapore, with over a third (39%) of residents meticulously planning their route before heading out
Proving to be quick on their feet, a quarter (23%) of Bukit Batok residents take less than five minutes to get back on track when lost, the fastest in Singapore
Bukit Batok has the highest usage of car sat-nav devices in Singapore (11%)

Jurong West key facts

Jurong West has been revealed to be the most confusing city in Singapore, with over a third (36%) of residents admitting to getting lost in their home town
Residents in Jurong West are most likely to waste a career opportunity, with one in five missing a job interview (19%) because they got lost
Not a great way to start a relaxing break, one in ten (9%) Jurong residents get lost and miss their flight, train or bus journey to their holiday destination
One in ten (10%) of romantic residents in Jurong West use asking for directions as an excuse to flirt

Choa Chu Kang key facts

Admitting to be the most absent minded in Singapore, nearly a third (28%) of residents in Choa Chu Kang forget to print off directions to their destination
Over a quarter (26%) of residents in Choa Chu Kang believe in science and think that a sense of direction is genetic
· Sensitive to the weather, nearly a third (28%) of Choa Chu Kang residents blame the rain for getting lost

Woodlands key facts

Showing that they have a mean streak, one in ten (10%) of Woodlands residents take pleasure in giving a lost person the wrong directions
Preferring personal interaction, nearly two thirds (62%) of Woodlands residents ask for directions en-route

Yishun key facts

More than one in ten (11%) Yishun residents boldly claim never to have been lost
Logical residents in Yishun are the most likely in Singapore to use road signs or road names (13%) as a point of reference to direct lost strangers

2008-12-11T08:00:00.002+08:00

that was farewell for you,
now it's welcome back all over again :)

all happening in THREE days time!!!

jiayi says:
AHH
jiayi says:
jamie!!!
jiayi says:
i cant wait to come back!
jiayi says:
im so excited u know
jiayi says:
hahahha
Dream Teamer Jamie ! says:
HAHA SAME SAMEE
jiayi says:
excited until cant sleep!!
jiayi says:
lol!

here's jiayi's top three wishes:

jiayi says:
must maximise the time man
jiayi says:
sure pass by super duper fast!

jiayi says:
i need some good supper fooood
jiayi says:
come eat at newton with me! since u stay there

jiayi says:
i wanna sit ur car!!

***

nice catch-up at 4am with you!
MANNN, i miss you so much, can't wait for you to be back!!! :)

2008-12-10T13:10:00.002+08:00

hang on, be strong.

store His voice in your heart.

2008-12-09T13:54:00.004+08:00

growing up
MACRO
level-headed
processes processes processes
wisdom
spiritual
step in step up take charge make decisions make things happen

awesome things are happening in our midst.

***

i wonder if you know.

cuz.
when you know,
you just know,
& that is how we felt.

& then again.

sometimes, you think you know... but you have no idea.

just gotta stick to the choices you make & make up your mind.

the more you waver, the more confused you'll be.

still, i wonder if you know.

ben&jerry's is addictive, choc fudge brownie makes you giddy happy.
three scoops a day for three consecutive days is smth v special.
sugar rush & staying high for abit.

dinner for 15mins laughing away is good too.
we're busy but never too busy :)
quality time is time we all treasure.
it's always what we make out of it.

simplicity is good, don't need many things to be happy.
special & always my favourite.
keep me safe & sound,
changed my life, moved it all around.

choose to see the best in people,
encourage re-affirm speak life.
doesn't hurt to see the positive side,
always pains to look at the downside.

be secure in who you are, what you have.
that boy with his 5loaves&2fishes never despised his own little lunch box.
you're special in your own little ways, don't think otherwise.
you deserve so much more.

lunch is over,
end of my 5mins update.

2008-11-28T10:44:00.004+08:00

this is so funny i can't help but put it up :) :) :)

someone pls tell me why we were all holding on to capsicums??

MANNN i love my zone.
4 years ago
3 years ago
2 years ago
1 year ago
up till now... (all the way till forever)

i still love my zone :) ha ha ha.

how not to love heart of God church?
how not to stay here for the rest of your life?

:) this is home, truly.

2008-11-26T14:27:00.002+08:00

the CEG brokethrough last week & it was all very good.
i feel the leaders are growing stronger & the feeling is v shiok knowing everyone is working hard together for one common goal.
also like how everything is very much in place & we can take all this higher because everyone has stretched a lil bit more.
so it’s been great because God says it’s good & He has never let me down.

alot of dreams were birthed & it’s been really encouraging hearing every single one of them.
the vision He gave me during that particular prayer meeting;
i still hold it v close to my heart up till today.
there’s a silent, still confidence in the God i know since day one,
He’s just working things out one by one, bit by bit.

I remember that as a child i’ve always enjoyed playing ‘pass the parcel’.
was always excited about the present that was hidden in the innermost layer because it would always be something everyone was deeply desiring for..
similarly, i like how God always plays pass the parcel with us..
every time the parcel comes along, you’re tried/tested with something.
however at the end of the day,
what you find on the innermost layer always surprises you pleasantly :)

& since we’re on the topic of surprises,
i’ve been getting surprised time & again & it’s v v sweet to be in my shoes.
it’s everything about you that makes everything so special :)
yippee yay hurray.
many many times i feel so blessed but i guess you’ll never really get it because it’s unexplainable & unbelievable & just v special.

oh oh, i baked choc chip cookies & cornflake cookies last week & everyone likes it!
awesome. shall bake more of them when i’m free! hehehe.
garrett makes awesome mushroom & cheese sandwich too!
you should go try some the next time he does it again!

meeting with lynette last night was cool.
i love meeting my leader because it’s fresh perspectives from her & plenty of learning & growing.
It’s been 4 years of meetings after meetings but i’m never sick or tired of them.
funny how sometimes we can just take these meetings with our leaders for granted & even grumble/complain about it.
lynette was really tired already but she still met us to go through the grind one by one,
so i guess i’m just really thankful to have such an amazing leader :)

okay very good i just blogged i’m so productive.
okay very good very good very good.
you are very good and that's very good.
goodnight.

2008-11-13T14:18:00.002+08:00

smile ! :) it's not that bad .
smile ! :) it's not that bad .
smile ! :) it's not that bad .
smile ! :) it's not that bad .
smile ! :) it's not that bad .
smile ! :) it's not that bad .
smile ! :) it's not that bad .
smile ! :) it's not that bad .
smile ! :) it's not that bad .
smile ! :) it's not that bad .

liyi just got me SINS chocolates from republic plaza to cheer me up,
ate two & it worked like a happy pill :) :) :)

probably the only thing i'm looking forward to later is heading to church for CG.

smile ! :) it's not that bad .

2008-11-11T14:51:00.004+08:00

just sent Pastors a mail sharing some stuff,
feel so good now :)
recalled how i used to be so much closer to Pastors when the church was smaller,
but as the Church grew, i somehow grew further away.
NOW i wanna grow closer to Pastors again,
so started to share more with them all over again :) cool.

dominic said yesterday "the bigger we are, the smaller we've got to be"
tighter relationships, stronger bonds, deeper roots.
so true, how many churches can actually call themselves collectively as a church, a family, & an army, all at one go?? :)

have you heard?
zone F is real exciting!
was listening to all the growth that's happening over there,
as well as the upcoming plans for the next few years,
& i'm really really excited for them!!!
woah, zone F is powerful man :)

all that growth aside, lynette was talking about how all the zone F leaders have really ploughed & sowed into the people for the first three-quarters of the year..
so it's v cool you see?
everything they have been building haven't gone to waste,
they were merely building up the foundations for the coming wave of revival..

still, i think we're in the most exciting place to spend the best years of our lives :)
i can really do this forever & ever.
to go on my 1000th outing, to be talking to people about their lives, to be irritating satan, to be praying & prophesying for people, to be discussing action plans, to raise up leaders..
man, we don't get sick of doing the things we're doing because we absolutely love it!

aside from seeing all that lives changed, you realise you're no longer living for yourself.
there's a bigger purpose, a greater cause,
you pray prayers like "God it's okay if i'm the one who dies, but just get him saved, cuz he's not a child of God yet."
you go out shopping for yourself but you end up buying things for others.
you didn't do too well for your exams but your mind is on your member's family problems.
you have gastric problems but you fast until your classmate comes to church.
you spend your last few dollars treating an integration dinner & you go hungry for the rest of the night.
you secretly lay hands on your parents when they're fast asleep, hoping they'll get touched by God.
you stay up till 4am until everyone is asleep before you can do your quiet time.

radicalism.

we're in a youth church, everyone looks down on us..
they say young people are all troublesome & have no money..
they say it's all hype & excitement, tht we won't last long in this race..
but they undermined the power of God changing our lives from the start..
they forgot the story of david & how he first started out..
he went from zero to hero..
from the guy whom nobody noticed & cared about in the backyard, to the one who defeated goliath, to king david, the man after God's own heart.
just like david, we'll go from faith to faith, glory to glory :)

so many things changes, although the center of focus always stays the same.
will we make a stand today???

2008-11-09T01:57:00.005+08:00

YAY D1 CEG PICTURE IS UP UP UP!!! :)
we haven't been actively taking much pictures recently,
so this is to make up for the lack of pics the past few months!!! :) :) :)

D1 rocks my socks, they choose to eat their dinner beside the fountain cuz thts the only place the entire CEG can sit together..
MANNN, you guys are too cool :)

ANYWAY! :) so happy we got to shout goodbye to Pastors earlier before they left..!
then we lined up in a row & did the can-can dance at the barricade when their car passed by, awesome!!!
Pastor Lia called us aunties & uncles & everyone broke out laughing.. ha ha.
i like it how everyone in the CEG really loves Pastors.. it's a v v sweet & satisfying feeling to know everyone loves your spiritual parents the way you do :)

hmmm!
so my days have been pretty awesome lately.
i think hanging out with the leaders have changed me quite abit..
having lynette share with me how she feels abt certain things; being more open to my leaders knowing that it's gd for them to know, even though sometimes it can be tremendously awkward & uncomfortable..

i think i've never really seen how my Pastors & leaders can really play a part in my life in not just a spiritual imput kinda way,
but a very real & practical way in my everyday happenings...
yet the past week or so has really made me see how things changes when you start to step out of your comfort zone..
it's no longer Pastors being your Pastors, or your leaders being your leaders..
don't qt know how to explain this, but it's a v amazing feeling.
you truly, genuinely feel like Pastors are almost like your parents, & your leaders are your friends..

i don't know abt you, but i think sometimes we cannot just keep talking to our leaders abt our new friends, our integrations, our ministry etc.
that is all gd, but sometimes we just got to take things one step further & share with them our thoughts & feelings, our lives & the problems we face etc.

honestly speaking, i do feel silly at times when i share things with lynette that requires me to seriously bare with her all my feelings & be absolutely transparent with her..
but i guess that's what it really takes if i wanna grow & breakthrough,
or to be more like her.
it's abt her knowing my thoughts, feelings, my life, my everything..
only when she knows my thought pattern, then can she guide me further on what she thinks or wht i should do..
& i most definitely trust my leaders & Pastors for them to speak into my life or the decisions i shld make etc :)

so i guess that's one thing which really made my heart skip happily the past week..
sometimes it's really the ppl you hang out with which changes you. :)
some ppl bring you closer to the man & woman of God, some ppl just take you away completely & draw you closer to themselves.
choose to hang out with the right ppl :)
i'm so glad i made the right choice :) :) :)

i wake up each morning thanking God for my life.
there's such special people around me & i know i can't take them for granted..
i know that i know & you know that you know.
if you don't know then it's okay just pretend that you know.. ha ha.

today samteo wasn't ard in church & i felt so weird.
maybe it's cuz i'm so used to having her talk at me. HA HA HA.
but yea, she's so cool she actually hungered so much for the word of God that she called into cherie's hp during svc so she could still hear Pst Kong preach while she was at home!!!
how cool is tht??
VERY. :)

prayer meet for 1hr later with the CEG :)
let me share with you something i just came up with!!!
v simple, you either get it or you don't..

prayer = power
more power = more prayer
power people = prayer people
more people pray = more people power
:)

k, really can't wait for the grand finale with Pst Kong later..
seriously, i'm so excited i can't get to sleep!!!
& it's 530am alrdy ha ha ha!
love to see how Pst How really preaches like Pst Kong!
& how charleston, garrett, dominic preach like Pst How!
so at the end of the day, you just need to be in the right flow & knw tht it's followship all the way.. :)

love love love my life !!!!! :)

alright shall turn off my lights & count to 10..

thanks for reading till thus far,
samteo encouraged me to ramble in this post so i listened to her & rambled as much as i could.. ha ha.

see you all luh buh bye loved ones...

2008-11-04T10:39:00.001+08:00

wendy says:
hahahs i still remember yuw ere in church in a paddington bear shirt and shorts

wendy says:
cause you escape out of house or smth

Dream Teamer Jamie ! says:
oh my goodness

Dream Teamer Jamie ! says:
yes yes

Dream Teamer Jamie ! says:
i reemember tht day

Dream Teamer Jamie ! says:
i cried eh

Dream Teamer Jamie ! says:
cuz i ran out

wendy says:
hahahha i had that before too

wendy says:
we are both brave brave people

wendy says:
thats why i think God also really bless us in our ministry

wendy says:
(:

Dream Teamer Jamie ! says:
haha yea !!

Dream Teamer Jamie ! says:
GOD IS GOOD!

2008-11-03T14:01:00.002+08:00

working on lenovo monthly report right now, duper doped.

morning prayer this morning was gd stuff :)
God woke me up at 445am so i had sufficient time to prep everything & speed to church! :)
took me only abt 5mins to get there yknow! :)

HO YEAH, driving at 5+am in the morning is realll scary.
i speeded until i cannot speed anymore..
best thing is that your headlights doesn't help you much at all cuz everywhere is still kinda pitch black,
so you end up almost killing people wearing black :\
not fun at all, srsly.

ate spicy yong tau foo for lunch,
& went around chinatown trying to find the silly AXS machine to pay my fines! ha ha.
keep telling myself tht i need to strive to be a better driver so my license doesn't get revoked so quickly!
i'm trying i'm really really trying! must trust me...... :)

life is exciting, we had CGLs meeting with lynette yesterday at marina square!
ate & talked through many things, i miss my leader alot!
everything feels normal again with her around.. ha ha ha :)

still very happy that the mango tango EV case is deemed 100% successful! :)
absolute joy to be the one leading him in the sinner's prayer..
awesome man, i love seeing people through from the day i meet them to the day of their salvation!
let's all pray he decides to quit his mango tango job downstairs & come to church to make mango tango instead! wooo! :)

alright, my head is throbbing madly right now..
maybe it's a sign for me to take MC tmr..!! :) :) :)

mannn. the company organised a trip to bintan on the 21st, oh my mama.
it's a training trip so we're gonna be learning new stuff there..
SERIOUSLY. WHAT ARE YOU GUYS DOING !?!
mad people do mad things, ya da ya da..

wht else??
samteo has been finding out alot of things abt my life. :) :) :)
i also think it's quite cool because i feel like i'm living a dream right now.
not as in lala-land dream, but pow-wow dream, yknw what i mean??

see i'm rambling already so i bet i'm losing readers here..
k, so yes, nick vujicic's service tmr, can't wait for it! :)
then after tht is Pst Kong's svc already!
woah, it's really a power-packed week, definitely.

was just talking to jianming yesterday,
& we realised tht the leaders have been going out to supper every sat/sun night..
three weeks back, it was initiated by charleston.
two weeks back, by garrett.
last week, by dominic.

so if you've missed out on any of them, do initiate one for this coming weekend!
ha ha ha!
THAT'S ALL!
bye! :)

2008-10-31T11:05:00.002+08:00

i think i'm a very previleged kid to be where i am right now :)

right person, right place, right time.

everything falls into place so nicely, it's hard to believe.

some people are never contented with their lives, but i am :)

God never fails to surprise me with His ways, just gotta let Him do His thing sometimes, ha ha.

so up till now i still think it's cool to be me.

would never, ever, want to trade my life with anyone else's! :)

treasure who you are & what you have in your hands.

if you always look at what others have & what you lack, you'll forever be a miserable person.

don't need so much money, don't need so many friends, don't need big house or big car, just need life to be like that it's more than enough for me :)

the other day as i was driving out of singpost's carpark, a few of the d1 people stood in a row at the barricade with a piece of paper each on their hands.

each paper had a word written on it.

"get"
"well"
"soon"
"jamie"
& a smiley face was all i saw.

so simple, yet so sweet.

on my way home, i thought to myself how i didn't need anything else in the world because i already had everything, maybe much more than what i could ever ask for..

broke out into a smile because i knew i was living the bestest life ever :)
started to thank God for my life.
thanked Him for the events that happened in my life.
thanked Him for the people around me.

so yea, if you're one of those pretty awesome people, a really big thank you for brightening up my everyday with your funny little antics. :)

i don't need a new watch, a new phone, a new car, new clothes..
i don't need more acquaintances, i don't need fame, i don't need money..
i seriously have EVERYTHING EVERYTHING EVERYTHING!!!
so blessed to be who i am. :)

so i think sometimes we just got to count our blessings & be really thankful for what we've got.
heart of God church; Pastors; your leaders; the person who brought you to church; the person who did follow-up with you; the person who first integrated you when you came; your family; your friends; your awesome life etc! :)

have you ever thought about it before?
where will you be now if not for these people??

it's always good once in a while to think about how people have made such an impact in your life..
& it's always good to have a heart of thanksgiving :)

2008-10-30T01:15:00.001+08:00

it's so fun,
i feel myself going up to a whole new level already :)

fourth dimension fourth dimension fourth dimension.

i think i really grew the past two weeks when my two dearest ZMs went to london..
then you realise what's left is you & your ZL & nobody else & you see nothing else but one word- opportunities.
it felt funny but it felt all so good to be breaking out of your comfort zone & doing things you've never quite done before..

i know in my spirit that everything has enlarged & expanded..
i feel the muscles of a stronger spirit man.

so yea. i wanna grow to be where lynette is right now..
gotta see myself doing the things that lynette is doing..
definitely not easy but i wanna be just like her :)

on a totally separate note..
i like it how i'm closer to some of the leaders now..
joanne & wendy are very nice loving people & you should like them too :)

really can't wait for Pastors to be back, miss them plenty..
can't wait for combined service on sat as well..

so many things to look forward to, how to not be an eager beaver?? :) :) :)

srsly, 1400 is easy peasy.
just wait & see.

2008-10-29T00:48:00.001+08:00

today's a good day, a productive day..
feel alot more useful when i'm not working...

i think i'm falling in love with my own life so much,
can't stop doing the things tht i'm doing.. ha ha ha.
what about you! do you like what u're doing with your life?? :)

anyway! i've got three days MC so better make ultimate full use of it.. hee hee:)
pray for me tho, i've got bronchitis?!?
i'm sure the doctor was smoking me because i don't feel tht sick anymore.
thank you to those who prayed for me.. your prayers really came to pass..
i really got back my voice after getting my 3 days MC slip.. :P thx thx!

cool stuff, we had prayer meeting for 5-6hrs on monday..
just kept praying just kept praying as a CEG.. woohoooo.
brokethrough in our spirits, it was very powerful..
if only we have deepavali every week, then we can do it all over again!

tmr there's gonna be bbq with the dzone leaders at bishan!
definitely gonna be lots of fun! :)

today i met the dzone CGLs to talk about their incubated friends..
went for SET meeting after that,
then met the CGLs again..

later towards the night we all went out for dim sum together at aljunied! :)
seah darryl, jooyu, reuben, valtock, evonne, lisa, samteo, & myself went!
exciting to the max i tell you.. never went out together in this combination of people before.. but it's all gd luh.
4 from d'odds, 4 from d'evens.. ha ha!
so cool how we had 4 left handers & 4 right handers!

k so we came back & talked somemore then decided dzone shall all fast together this friday! YESSSSS!!!!!
:) it's gonna be great! 235! 1 Timothy 2:3-5 !!!

woahlamak, i'm so full of faith right now!
it's there, i see it, i feel it, i hear it.
can one, no problem at all.. keep seeing it in your spirit.

report time now! :)
BUH BYE SAYONARA!

p.s london pple coming back on fri!!! wheeeee!!! :) :) :) :) :)

2008-10-23T14:06:00.006+08:00

happy birthday korkor! :>
we had his birthday celebration at ritz carlton's greenhouse :)
very yum food, we all ate so much!

i can still remember Pastors brought Dominic, jiayi and myself there once before quite some time ago to eat the lunch buffett..
& the talk we had with them that day really changed my life. :)
so yea, love my Pastors :) :) :)
speaking of which, i really miss them alot & i really can't wait for all of them to be back soon!

anyhow, i'll be getting my brother a watch for his bday present cuz he mentioned he wanted a watch.. :)
so if you know of any nice watches & want me to chekkit out, let me know!
tqvm! :>

last night we did very crazy things !
it's amazing what you can do when you have a car ha ha ha! :)
felicia, huimin and myself trooped down to dom's house past 12am to pass him 8 bottles of chicken essence cuz he has an exam the next day! :)
dom had the shock of his life, ha ha ha!
later we lost our way (what's new?) on the way down to orchard's TCC to find the rest. heh.
hung ard with charleston, garrett, wendy, joanne, jiayang, maryse, chloe, gabriel, jeremy quek, furong!
we could do this everyday, forever :>

went back at 5am like that & then the rest of the things you do not really need to know :) ha ha ha.
CG with D1 later, so exciting :)

k, ttyl :>
LUV LUV LUV YALL TERRIBLY MUCH.

2008-10-20T11:03:00.004+08:00

OJB = operation just because. :)
thank you for the sweet flowers, they are still happily alive now :)

went to the airport to send Pastors off on sunday night,
learnt some things about our attitude towards serving Pastors..

i had alot of fun at newton circus last night.
wished everyday could be this way.
ha ha ha :)

good food, good company.
what else can you ask for??

so glad felicia & huimin came along,
it was really a cool outing.
we were not even thinking much, just relaxing,
& hanging out with one another. it was all gd chilling :)

speed back home in 2mins, forgot to turn on headlights.
garrett called me to warn me, but i reached home already.
ha ha :) my beetle is so funky, still alive man gotta thank God.

i like where i am right now,
who i have around me,
& what i'm doing with my life.
what about you? :)

2008-10-17T16:35:00.002+08:00

i think friends really determine the person.
who you hang around with really determines what kind of person you are.

it's all so cool, too good to be true.
God has His plans & you don't misunderstand.

hung around in church till abt 2am & did alot of fun stuff.
the people in d1 are so sweet & i love them all duper much.
the chicken rice, the root beer & the potong was all very special.
you guys may seem a lil' crazy sometimes but you make people's day so that's all that matters haha.

was talking to dom & garrett after they were done with their sermons,
& then i read through both their sermons & whoah, what can i say??
they really carry the exact DNA of Pastors & it was really the word of God to lay up our foundations strong :)

seeing how dominic wrote his sermon for zone F really inspired me because i know a few of us will be preaching in Children's church soon.
it really engaged the people & taught them how to grow one level higher.

garrett's sermon was just super him. you read it, you hear him. haha.
it's very spiritual, it's very garrett :)
look forward to that, it's something you can't miss for anything.

felt really previleged to have read the things that were on their hearts,
& at the same time i really understood why we've got to hang out with our leaders :)

CEG was great, the surprise by Pastors were even better :)
wow whee, i was really very touched by all the food Pastors gave us.
texted Pastor immediately to thank them & told them we'll continue loving God, loving people, loving life, and loving food! :) haha.

alright so i decided to blog an entry down because i feel really good right now.
have cleared one load off my chest, with lots of garrett's help :)
talked to him on my way to get stationery & yeaaaa, found out many many things!
so awesome, you really should talk to garrett more, it's an eye-opener!

i think this should be the kind of feeling i go through everyday.
it's too addictive, i can't jump ship elsewhere.

Pastors will be flying to london soon & i'm really gonna miss my Pastors and lynette and the rest.

charleston will be preaching on sunday & that's something we all will be looking forward to :)

there's so many things coming up & if you're not excited about any of them, i am.

:) :) :)

move on

2008-10-10T15:49:00.003+08:00

i just typed a whole load of trash,
& deleted it thereafter.

just got to GROW & EXPAND & STRETCH & know it's all within His hands.

keep walking in the center of His will,
knowing you're walking in His destiny for you.

before you were even formed in your mother's womb,
He already had plans for you.

so trust Him, keep walking along, don't turn back & regret,
or look forward in fear & anxiousness.

the more you gripe & complain abt it,
the more He is unable to use you.

if you change your mentality,
you'll be an avenue He can use you in to do His work.

so, push yourself for this season,
be prepared for some hard work.

breathe in, breathe out.
pray hard, don't lose focus.

we're all moving forward together,
don't get left behind just because of you.

grow out of yourself,
start living in the spirit.

pray pray pray,
if in doubt, just look to Him.

the only key to your heart,
the concluding answer to everything.

2008-10-07T15:29:00.002+08:00

today's my bday & i thank you for all your well wishes, thanks :)
i couldn't stop to read my msg-es last night cuz it just kept coming in,
& so i just left it there for abit..

there were some really sweet msg-es that came in, like the one from audrey that came in an hr early, & she said she had texted me earlier cuz she was afraid she would fall asleep while waiting.. awww its the thought that counts :)

& one from our funny viknesh, that went like this..

"welcome jamie to vik loves jamie centre. For the next couple of hours till your birthday you would be receiving sms every hour on the dot till 12 midnight. You would be advised not to reply because i do not need you to say anything... To unsuscribe, you can't. Just like how you can't stop me from loving you. Have a pleasant day ahead jamie. Your next msg will be due shortly. :) :) :)"

i seriously LAUGHED OUT LOUD man, in the middle of my lunch. HA HA HA.

so yea, it was so funny i tell you. you guys are amazing, never fail to make me laugh.

in the morning at 530am when my hp started to vibrate, i almost killed myself.
a couple more streamed in, probably those who just woke up to go to school.. hah.
thanks so much guys :)

i don't think i can name everyone, but i really appreciate it all.

it has become so bad because i've received many sms-es but i don't have their names saved in my phone book..?
will check you all out & then slowly unravel all the mystery people.. ha ha.

my brother is the sweetest :)
he actually bought me a cake from bakerzin on sunday before he booked in,
cuz he told my mum he just HAD to get me a cake,
since he wouldn't be around..

but more than just that,
earlier on just now, i received a text from him that went like this..

"dint expect me 2 rembr tis, but sumhow i still did. Happy 20th jamie! Since u're such a pple's person, i've gotten u pple's stuff. All hidden in ur rm btws.."

second text came in shortly after..

"u'd gotta find em 2 claim ownership yea. Haf a great bday ahead! :)"

SO SWEET LUH :)
now i can't wait to get home to do my treasure hunt thing :) :) :)

he also got kin onn to msg me to wish me,
since kin onn also in NDU with him.. heehaw.

my brother's so sweet, i don't want him to go to aussie after his NS.
no wayyy! don't wanna let him go. ha ha ha.

k luh, i'm looking very dubious here in the office.
shall head off now, tata guys! :)

2008-10-06T10:00:00.003+08:00

drove to work today quite smoothly, speeded past many cars & got myself here in abt 10mins! :) what an improvement, ha ha.

went to eat rochor tau huay with yo last night & talked plenty with her :)
it was a good talk, i shared a couple of things :)
then she took 21 back home with me & i smuggled her into my house while the whole family was asleep.. ha ha.
she saw the mess in my room but just to clarify, it's a very nice neat mess.
can't wait for all my furniture to be in so i can pack my room up proper!
clothes are all lying around & i've got no mood to find them in all the boxes, ugh.

also wanted to say that it's really a blessing to be in hoGc,
past two days we had refreshing sermons from Pastor How,
followship not fellowship, woah. :)
& on sunday he prayed for some people & it was all so anointed.
so happy for all those who went up to get prayed for,
know they really got a touch from God :)

it's also such a blessing to be in d1.
had so many surprises in the past weekend.
to receive a grilled chicken wrap from yo & sam for sat's dinner;
to receive a pre-bday ice-cream from viknesh at 1+ am;
to have felicia, huimin, pollyna, sam, yo & vik sing me a happy bday song along the road pavement while we were waiting for a cab (EVEN THOUGH IT WAS NOT MY BDAY =,=");
to receive a letter & tube of boost from d10, operation just because;
to get a packet of chocolate teddy biscuits from howteng, because she knew i liked to eat it... (which i'm happily munching on right now @ work!)

so what more can i say??
food CG, awesome taste buds :)
love y'all, thanks for everything!

okie dokes, back to work!
hocus pocus FOCUS!!! :D

new hse

2008-10-01T11:21:00.003+08:00

hello world! :)

i just moved house, from novena to newton, so it's been qt tiring :\
the internet just got up, so here i am blogging away :)
the view from my house is breath-taking, i'm blown away when i'm on my own rooftop garden, ha ha ha. (of course cannot beat darren's, but still very nice!)

i wanted to say that i'm a real previleged kid, where i am right now, God really placed me in great places. new car, new house, what's next?? ;)

the past few days have been spent at ikea, i was happily shopping for furniture :)
and eating their meatballs & daim cake of course :D

oh ya, i almost got into a car accident last week, some dude kept gostan-ing so fast, i screamed & horned for my own life :O
then the day before yesterday, i almost killed my parents when i turned left & some other dude almost knocked me.
so, having a puny car is not so good after all, everyone can't seem to see me.

the new house is abit scary, i'm not used to sleeping alone, & what's more sleeping alone upstairs, all by myself, where no one can hear me :\

i've been sleeping with Pastor's sermon in the background the past few days, feels like i'm sleeping in church! :) haha.

but it's all still quite small & cosy, i like :) the car park is puny, i always get it from the guard cuz my car is always parked singeh, weeps =,="

today is an off-day, thank God! don't have to go to work today!!! :) :) :) it's been the best thing to have a holiday in the midst of all the nokia buzz since they are coming up with a new touch-screen handphone, tsk.

been invited to the lifehouse party on saturday, at st james power station lehxz, HA HA HA. rejected the invitation though, i've got more powerful stuff going on at singapore post man.

that being said, i miss everyone in church! :) you're deeply missed, weeps.
i miss my two friends kevin & kelvin, gotta see their face soon.

okie dokes, gotta help my mum already! :)

psst, i'm gonna have house-warming party so let me know if you wanna drop by! ha ha!

awesome life i have. :)

2008-09-15T23:09:00.002+08:00

i conquered monday!!!
ALL RIGHT! great, many more weeks to overcome yee haw!
i can do this, i can do anything, everything! :)

woke up at 6am, changed a thousand times before wearing my mum's pyjamas, then got outta the house & prayed to work.
reached there & lo & behold,
it was me & the cleaner auntie & nobody else.
whipped out the hp & dialled a few numbers & talked abit.

chased the monday blues away by spamming the office people's emails with smiley faces. my boss replied me saying it was a good attempt, ha ha ha :) awesome.

oh yeah.
ivan went to play rambo for abit, how cool is that???

lunch time was cool, i went to hong lim with liyi.
bought crayfish & prawn hor fun, ATOMIC BOMB luh.
liyi & i agreed to try one stall a day,
so that by the time i'm done with internship,
i would have conquered the entire hong lim complex wooooo :)
sweet, sweet.

hmmm. funny how we can be vulnerable to some people,
& share with them our innermost thoughts & feelings,
but what is perceived by them is nothing short of mockery & ridicule.
when people are vulnerable to you with their thoughts & emotions,
you protect it, not despise or scorn at it.

oh yea, we humans shouldn't get too critical & judgemental too quickly.
pause, breathe, take a look around, then carry on.

p.s. OJB is such a great success, well done guys! :)

2008-09-11T00:23:00.003+08:00

hi i am in church now and the time reads 1222am.
i will run off in 3mins to catch my last bus :)

CEG worship session was fantastic today.
i like being among the CEG.
gabriel bought oreos for us, they were very sweet.

OJB is gonna happen very soon,
so andy and alan shall kick start this whole thing :)
thanks guys ;)

i've got work in a couple of hours,
& i shall fourth dimension that when i come back from work,
the beetle shall be somewhere near me :D

okay, time's up! :) :) :)
see you all.

(yo said she was here, PLEASE TAKE NOTE)

okay, ALAN DEMANDED HIS NAME TO BE HERE TOO.
andy just laughed at him.
huimin giggled, don't know why also.
strange people... hmmm.

oh yah, i want to collect the collectible kit-kat pens & pencils from seven-eleven!!!
if you pass by & see it, pls help me to get kkk! ha ha ha!
just need to buy TWO kit-kats, then you can get it! easy-peasy!!!
thanks so much! :)

alright, the bus uncle don't want to wait for me already, see you all before he drives off!!! :) WHEEE

2008-09-08T22:13:00.003+08:00

i'm really quite sad now because my mum threw away my food.

now i'm all hungry & what i'm left with is ribena in my fridge.
many many packets of ribena.

okay, i ate jelly babies today & they were uber sweet.

i ate alot of chocolate as well.

let's see.

i ate chocolate muffin for breakfast.

chocolate chips & jelly babies for lunch.

ribena for dinner.

tmr there's steamboat & that will make up for today's empty stomach.

aw man i'm cranky because i can't think & my stomach is growling like a teddy bear.

okay i shall call the connect group now.

tata.

2008-09-06T01:57:00.002+08:00

we had CG at beryl's house & it was amazing :)
it was a power packed night, i felt recharged to stretch even greater.
that night, i cried in the presence of God.
He was there, He really was, & everyone around felt Him.
it was the THICK tangible presence that just overwhelmed me completely.
i couldn't help but tear as i read through His word aloud. He's amazing.

mabel got me a rose, so sweet :)
speaking of which, thanks everyone for all the happy teachers day messages :)
i'm so happy we gave dominic & lynette a mini surprise last sun midnight!
& samteo brilliantly got the entire 41st day to help us so we managed to sneak a note & folded rose on their desks :) :) :) love our leaders!

hmm, let's see..
work has been, fine.
i no longer have paper cuts, i've moved on to giddy spells :\ yikes.
two weeks down, counting down to the end of everything!

today i rushed down to spore flyer to purchase gifts for our dear symantec clients,
then i rushed down to citilink mall to get everything gift wrapped at prints,
before rushing back to the office.
non-stop action. it was such a killer :\

came back to the office & got a surprise from nicole :)
she left the packet of cheezels on my table for me, so sweet.

i've got so many things to sort out, so many elephants.
strange how the answers can be right ahead but you don't wanna accept it,
just because.

there are some things that are too precious to lose, so we hang on to them tightly.
even when we know what's good for us, we pretend not to see it.
why do we constantly make life so difficult for ourselves???

i think i just wanna say tht it's really a blessing to be me..
a few of them wanted to come over to my office place today, but got lost!
haha, i really appreciated the thought anw :)
the rose, the cheezels, the car.. even my paddington boots!
i don't know what i did to deserve all of these.

it must have been Him :)

2008-09-02T09:01:00.002+08:00

alright im 15mins early for work today so i figured blogging could take up that 15mins. :)

received a particularly queer sms from AWJ & nic this morning at 8am -.-
asking me about a really silly question!! -.-
they are really funny.. trying to put elephants into my mind..
i hope they didn't spend the whole night thinking abt it..

if the news has yet to spread to you, yes i'm getting a car.
no more freaky trips to 21 bus stop anymore hooray! :)
no more china men no more jittery goosebumps YAY!
on the other hand...
supper outings more more moreeeee!!! :D :D :D

thank God for everything, srsly.
i have no idea how my mum agreed after what seemed like eternity, ha.
but anyhow, the car will be here soon & i'll be very happy :)

i've made friends with the people in the office & i have one good friend within them :) her name's nicole and she's mixed! haha.
interesting interesting, she's a christian too :)
best part is she used to be frm SCGS as well wahhas! small world.

there was a Pastor from Hope tht came last week & garrett kept insisting she talks, speaks, & acts like me!
haha i just thinks she smiles like me :) :) :)
but yea, funny how her leaders think we look alike too!

k, last week's HBO event was a success..
this week is Lenovo's & i've gotta spend my morning preparing the press kits.
i'm not complaining though :) gonna inject life into everything.

oh yeah, i've got my paddington boots!!! :D
surprise surprise! i got them as a gift & i really love it!
will wear them the next time it rains, ha ha ha!

till then, see you later alligator! :)

up[dates

2008-08-29T01:30:00.002+08:00

UP[DATE] !!!

it rained so heavily this morning that i walked ard the office ten times.
everyone in the office kept saying "it's so cold it's not even funny lorh!"
yeah it's really not funny man, i'm stocking up on winter clothing now.

i'm so inspired to get padington boots to protect myself from the rain.
but i've no clue where to get them from :\
but srsly, the rain made me sick so i'm all determined to fight it.

other than that, i've been having quite abit of fun here & there.
i've shifted desk from the coldest desk in the office to the not so cold one :0
also a very good position to msn & all now, but secretly, & not accepting any spams please. viknesh you watch out, don't play play ah.

led prayer meeting with zach on wed night & what can i say?
he was awesome, the presence of God came, the people were ministered.
really led it out of revelation so i was happy & everything was sweet :)
love leading people into His presence, the feeling's awesome.

the tents have all been set up outside church,
i'm all set to chiong for ramly burgers again ha ha ha :)
can still remember myself visiting the pasar malam stalls every day a year back,
fond memories of eating ice cream by the roadside with my going home pals :)

my boss is incredibly cool, i'm glad he was my boss & not someone else.
he's too cool, he makes me feel cool as well haha.
he has the same nokia e71 as me & he lovesss it... so do i :)
so we're working on a singtel pitch & brainstorming session today was just, mindblowingly challenging & crazy.

we had star awards today as well, web-conferenced with the other texties all over the world, tht was just so funny but amazing.
snacks were provided (sushi & all, so we ate like crap)
there was a winner from spore so we all celebrated like mad. cool stuff.
he's treating us lunch from the money he gets :D

chansiri came back for his farewell today, nice to have him back for awhile :)
am so gonna miss him when he leaves, feels kinda weird.
he was the one who showed me the ropes when i first came in & brought me around & helped me fit in nice & sweet into the place.
when it was freezing cold he made sure i wasn't left alone to die, so he passed over his blazer & i was grateful to the maxxx :)
aww man, so sad tht he's leaving :(

HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA talked so much abt work to update yall :)
don't worry i'm not dying, keep telling myself "just a little bit more.."
if i can do this, you can do it too.

just a little bit more.
after tmr's done, there's 19 more weeks left.
way to go man!!!

can't wait to meet the CG tmr, there's life whenever the CG is around.
buzzing noises & noisy people. HAHA love them all :)
can't wait can't wait can't wait.
tmr's gonna be great.
TGIF TGIF TGIF!!!

p.s/
i love how when i came home, i saw a BIG O box sitting in the fridge waiting for me. i opened it to see my fave SPIKE D durian cake lying down within the box, mum came over & said she got it for me :) sweeeeet!

love my current display pic, darren sent me his one & it is breathtakingly beautiful :) can't help but overtake it with my fireworks one! haha! love both actually. anything that is in the sky is preedeee.

k, gtg alrdy!
cya & gdnight!

2008-08-25T02:35:00.002+08:00

it's 2.30am & in 6hrs i will be starting my internship.

it ends at 6pm & then i'll meet my people for meeting with them & tie down some loose ends.

today, God spoke to me two times. one during the service prayer meeting, & one during Pst How's bday celebration. they were both as powerful :)

He said to me that the same God that caused the CG to breakthrough, is the same God that will cause my dad to get healed, and is also the same God that will cause my mum to be changed, and is also the same God that will cause my brother to get saved and planted. He is the same yesterday, today & forever. He is God of my forever.

awesome thing was how we sang "God of my forever" at the end of Pastor's celebration. God was just reassuring me, reaffirming me of all the silly thoughts in my head. He knew all the thoughts & intents of my heart, that really hit me.

Pastor Lia called me to her office just as i was leaving the admin office. & she said some things to me that greatly encouraged me & for me to know that God is indeed real. she knew that something might have been bothering me but made me feel so much better by joking around casually with me about it. my Pastor knows everything.. texted Pastor after that & shared with her how i felt, & she made me feel so much better again :)

i love my Pastors, i really do :)

it's nice seeing boris & bryan back in church. jiayi will be leaving in a flash & i'm gonna cry when she leaves.. jiayi you hear me??? i'm so gonna miss you, my twin! :) everyone says we look alike, i'm so honoured. :)

so the CEG brokethrough once again. we had 14 new friends in total from the CEG & that is pretty amazing. evangelistic people you all are.

roy actually brought 13 friends! not all of them stayed for service, but it's amazing how 8 stayed & had awesome responses!

alvina brought her fantastic brother, abraham!

jerlyn brought her uni friend yiting!

jade brought her friend julianna!

euodia brought her two juniors hengxuan & yuanling who are scholars like her!

abigale & clara brought yali!

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it's fun seeing the whole CEG being mobilised in such a mighty way.
it's more than just a momentum already, it's becoming a movement.

mighty wave of revival breaking out in the schools, i smell it already.
dream teamers, lets go! :)

2008-08-21T09:14:00.002+08:00

i wrote an entire entry but didn't publish it -,-
it was saved as a draft for 3 days..
but far too outdated to post it now.

anyhow, just wanted to say that i've been enjoying myself with the CG.
people work has always been my joy, never grew sick/tired of it.
how can people not love people???
& how can people say that we're doing things for a reason???
they should try doing it for months & years & see if there's really any reason at all..
i've never liked the idea of complicated motivations/evil intentions..
but what we're doing is something so naturally us.
loving people is pure sweet joy, far more rewarding than getting into a relationship and pouring out your time & energy into it.

am reading this book right now & it's so thrilling reading it,
it's like a book that speaks out of every essence of me.
haha, ask me & i'll tell you what book it is :)

i think each of us has that consciousness within us.
once you feel that something is too strange/awkward, we back off.
you fight your flesh or you succumb to it.
i don't understand why some people know it's wrong but still go ahead & do it.

visiting andy's house was so enjoyable :)
benny & marvin are funny people, i really had fun with them :)
i still can't believe their grandfather owns a fishball factory though...
anyway, hanging out with ng liping was great too!
so glad she came down for prayer meeting today, really :)

besides everything and all of that, i just wanted to say that stepping out of the picture and looking at things macro-ly, i'm so glad how every leader in d1 has grown so much.

felicia, you're a superwoman & a very good support. i love how you chiong outings like mad, i know i can always count on you.

yolanda, wonder woman??? hahaha. you power pack okay, handle CCH & d1's side. thanks for being the super integrator with the rest, stay with the team ah! haha!

huishan & beryl, my two newtownies who love people more than anything. so happy that you all are happy doing the hard work all over again. study hard plsss.

jerlyn, you make everything possible with pure hard work & grit. i'm so proud of you seeing how you've grown the past few months.. many many good reports have been coming in. you're amazing...

cherie, haven't forgotten you. don't see you doing the things in the background but i know you've been faithfully doing them.. the team needs people like you. don't worry you'll always be a part of us, can't wait for your exams to end!!!

colin, the strong guy that handles strong men. you always make growth seem so effortless, but we all know you've been working very hard.. :)

there're many more people out there supporting & i know it, thanks for being part of the team :) (viknesh, you are still very funny, i'm super serious)

why do i always feel like i'm blessed with such an awesome dream team?
we make all situations & all circumstances possible aite.

tuesday's meeting was short but sweet, we got things into place & now we've switched directions. i'm so happy at how everyone charges like no tomorrow all over again, you all are an army & everyone can see that :)

okie i'm going to church now to meet the rest. it's cool how you never stop being a people leader, it's 24/7. i called andy last night at 2am to tell him some things.. after which i called yolanda, and then jiayi. aww it's never-ending...

pls don't lose focus of what you're called to do, it's so so much more precious.

2008-08-11T21:34:00.002+08:00

PICTURES UPDATE! :)

got one hour of sleep last night,
way awesome how i can last till now man.
really got to thank my fellow scgl angweijie for the morning call :)
as well as alan for the second morning call in case i went back to sleep ha ha ha!

powerhouse was amazing,
learnt many things from Pastor How after the whole thing ended.
sometimes leaders just got to LEAD..
so much contained within that sentence alone.
it was a powerful meeting, Pastor actually came up with a set of training material from that meeting alone, so everyone just came up one level higher.

had meeting with charleston after tht & we got things into place.
it was all gd sitting opposite lynette beside fifi & roy,
& trying to talk the diff pple & discuss the whole game plan.
way exciting.. alot of hard work but i'm prepared to go through all of that.

growth doesn't come easy.. it really doesn't.
whoever said growth came with a snap of the finger was lying.
we work very hard to get what we have right now,
but that doesn't make us complacement,
it just makes us very thankful for favour with God & man :)

went to changi airport after tht to chilloutz with the cell,
i gotta admit i dragged my way there becuz the tiredness was setting in, argh.
they were eating when we came, but everyone switched gears to study mode in abit & it was all serious & gd stuff all the way.

had leaders meeting at the end, to celebrate the end of our sch holiday! ahhas.
taught them abt having their own convictions abt the things they believe in.
not convince but convict.
conviction not culture.

conviction is not convenient,
but becuz of that we birth forth a greater desire to dig deeper into His word to find out more abt God's character.
see, i told you it's alot of hard work..
nothing comes by so easy, you need to work for it yourself.

just feel so happy because i've led people to love His word even more :)
it's definitely exciting seeking after a revelation from Him,
& when you have experienced God first-hand yourself,
you are all ready with tht pre-determined decision in your heart that you'll never leave God.

... becuz you know He is real, & you can't deny His existence.

our God is a good God :)

2008-08-09T01:56:00.004+08:00

had so much fun with them today :)
CG then BMI then staff&leaders prayer meeting then dinner.
that's what being radical is all about.
we do life together, all the time.
we're stuck together like glue man.

colin bought us bubble tea,
it made me bubbly for a bit :)
i think the people around me are very sweet,
so sweet it sometimes scares others...
but still very sweet, i like :)

alan's sister is so funny.
she's so different from alan.
get to know her better, she'll make you laugh.
oh yea, she is alot funnier than alan, ha ha ha kidding!
she just talks alot more than him, that's all :)

trip to the bus stop was so funny.
we saw a cat flattened on the road, yucks.
then andy called me to say the rest was gonna join us,
nice surprise guys :)
we stopped by 7/11, bought some food, went home.
wish i stayed near them,
could have taken 30 together.
still love novena anyway :)

that being said,
it was a scary trip home.
i kinda fear china men now :\
scary experiences with them all the time.

got home & the shiny happy e71 was staring at me.
i'm a shiny happy girl sha la la :)
will probably use it at the start of next week.
new week, new beginnings!

looking forward to tmr because we've lined up so many things for each other.
await the surprise.
we're gonna be so fun & funny it's gonna blow you away :)

enjoying every bit of my life :)
thanks guys.

thank You God.

gdnight guys, mug hard muggers!!!

2008-08-08T08:44:00.003+08:00

it's friday morning & everyone should be screaming TGIF because i know alot of people aren't going to school today :) tsktsk

anyhow, the past few days were pretty awesome.
there were many random spectacular moments which made my day & night.
things like meeting the leaders on monday;
eating dinner with alan&andy;
tuesday made up of my first meet-up with the city missions leaders/core group that are gonna be coming over, oh so exciting;
pastoral meeting with Pastors;
wednesday i got alan, andy, xinwei, down to church for staff&leaders prayer meeting instead of watching a movie, ha ha ha;
following them down to tiong bahru afterwards to celebrate ng liping's birthday; rushing frantically to catch last bus but missed it so took several other buses with flea, but it was gd time spent;
thursday went to BIG O with mum at wheelock & we had a great meal & great time together;
before that i got lost but saw bus 64 that loops around meiling st so i immediately texted darren cuz he used to stay there;
now today is friday & i'm looking forward to every bit of it! :)

i woke up this morning & got many things settled. things which were swimming ard on my mind yesterday but i got everything done this morning.. if you had gotten an sms from me, ha ha ha, you were swimming ard in my thoughts yesterday :)

i feel so bad not updating the past four days so i'm trying to make it up by updating a longer entry today, yeah that really helps huh? :) ha ha ha.

Pastors were sharing with us about the future of heart of God church & it has been ringing in my head ever since. i'm so excited for ourselves, we have a destination & we're so going there in no time, i see us on the world map already :)

korkor's over in japan for ten days & he promised me he'll bring back loads of goodies, can't wait! :) i still can't believe my mum allowed him to fly off with his friends like tht.. it's so strange, she never used to be like that, spending time with me must have changed her quite abit, ha ha ha.

right now, SJI junior school, which happens to be right next to my house, is celebrating NDP, & it's hilarious how i'm hearing their BON JOVI blasting through the entire morning.. i mean, shouldn't it be songs like "count on me singapore"..?

the dream teamers have a little surprise thing thing that we're gonna do tmr! :) doing what we always do aye? ha ha ha. alright, look out for us yo!

the durian cake coated with chocolate from BIG O is da bomb!! SPIKE D! it's called. so gonna get one for Pastors, they would definitely love it! :) :) :)

oh yea, so funny, was texting darren yest then in one of his text he said "say hi to your mum for me!" and when i showed my mum the sms, she laughed and said "hello!". it was such a funny moment, like some kodak moment thing :) then the other day the CG made cookies for our parents, & she was a little speechless. heh.

mum's gonna get me the nokia e71 later on, duper happy, i'm kicking myself out of this handphone mess FINALLY. no more handphone blues, no more low battery handphone dying, NO MORE NO MOREEE. i'm so relieved. :) ha ha ha.

my best friend sahai is gonna bring his whole clan from k9 this week & the next! :) so so proud of him man! he's duper uber evangelistic & that's why he's my best friend, ha ha.

CG with D1 later! :0 funny people all the way man. let's build spirituality!!!

faith & success!

2008-08-04T00:51:00.001+08:00

so you see, being with the dream teamers makes you a lil' crazy but you have so much mad fun with them you can't stop grinning to yourself :) eating steamy boat with them was the ultimate, things always get better with food around. i don't know the association between food and us, but i'm pretty sure we go along quite fine like honey and bee :) one thing i'm even more definite, when we are 60, we'll still be eating steamboat like this, ha ha ha.

absolutely love doing what i am doing! :)

2008-08-02T10:26:00.004+08:00

friday was pure amazing :)

the cedarians team came in top, woohoo ! :)
can't wait for the straits times article to be out hahhs so proud of them.
really didn't expect them to be the winning team,
God has His ways, afterall they prayed so many times beforehand :)

i think this competition meant smth to me, qt abit i would say.
some pple probably didn't get that when i shared the gd news with them.
its not the planning, but how everything turned ard for good the God way.
all glory be to Him & the victory truly belongs to Jesus :)

went for FOP after tht & it was great,
Pastors were so anointed & i felt such a great sense of pride as i watched them take the stage..
charleston prayed with such boldness & confidence too..
our church is really going somewhere & you can't deny that :)

saw xinwei, peter, szelei, jeremiah & all was good.
something still etched in my head from the sermon is that "your love for God comes in the form of obedience".
guess that is all i was trying to put across in my prev entry.

k, after FOP a grp of us went to eat rochor tau huay & my eyes kept closing cuz it was past 12am alrdy!
nonetheless i took the challenge to WALK home from rochor & A&A accompanied me all the way back to home sweet home before they took a cab back, so sweet :)
we were so cool we sang worship songs, talked abt church, talked abt people in church, all the nonsense things that kept us awake while walking.

some thoughts flooded my head & a lil reflection here & there came in.
& then there are the people who have always been there, not those that comes in seasons & moods, but those that truly stay & hang around.

collapsed on my sofa pretty quickly & the next thing i know i gotta be back in sch again. it's such a cycle of things, can't stop gotta keep moving along.

alright, i just got back from the CEG steamyboat @ flea's & it was awesome :) i like seeing people like marcus & chiweng around cuz i hardly see them during the week.

liping came as well & she's sucha nice & funny person, the whole A&A clique can be really funny man. like how alan has been praising me so much nowadays it's funny.

samteo & i ended up staying over at flea's place cuz it was late & we didn't want to cab. hahs. our plans to go jogging past midnight were substituted by a walk down to 7/11 to quench our thirst.

later on i surprised huishan by calling up macs delivery for her because she was complaining of the hunger within. silly her actually thought the macs delivery guy prank called her when he called to say her food is here cuz she didn't know abt the surprise order. so cute luh. ho yea, we all love surprises don't we?? :)

got one when alvin msged ALL of us late at night, past 12am, with an sms that went "haha i just feel like saying, good night everyone!"... awww so sweet can?? :)

just got back home from breakfast with the parents at the market nearby, drank very tasty teh tarik & ate nice yummy carrot cake :) then followed my mum to marketing where she taught me how to look for the right vegetables, mushroom, fruits etc. i'm gonna be such a great wife man hahahhas :)

oh yes, my parents dropped the bomb on me just now when they said that they went for shangri-la's the line dinner buffet last night, without me. yknow how horrible i felt?? :/ then mummy wanted to make me feel better so she said next week daddy will bring me go hahahs. qt sweet eh? don't think i wanna spend the money though.. two of them paid $136 for the buffet last night luh, crazy pls.

cool, i'm gonna head to church for two more CGs to sit in for real soon, wayyy amazing people preaching :) samteo & colin! best best best.

was so touched when samteo told me that she encountered God while preparing for her sermon last night. gotta admit tht this series of spiritual adoption may seem like an easy sermon to preach & share abt, but there's no shortcut to it, you still gotta prepare if you want a punch in, not try & smoke smth through, argh, convictions man.

felicia is sucha servant-hearted person, she is just so willing to do anything to make your life easier for you & put a smile on your face. no wonder she's the founder of love foundation :) thanks for being such a good host flea, you did an amazing job :)

love the team i'm working with, everyone's just so supportive & loving. it's more than the love they offer for each other, they are just oozing out with love for God, for Pastors, for the people. i'm so thankful for this team :) love y'all.

will update pics in my next entry, as soon as chia ren gets back his internet & i'm free! yuppp. check back again alright!

2008-08-01T07:54:00.002+08:00

it's 7am & i'm in school waiting for the PITCH competition to start :)
i'm really happy cuz cedar got into the finals!!! :)
i hope they emerge top man!
other than that, i'm duperly tired & i can't wait for this thing to hurry end.
have been going to sch at duper early hrs & leaving at duper late hrs nowadays,
super no life can :\

awww seeing my churchies later :) awesome people i love.

last night i made a trip down to church at 11+ to hand in my building fund :)
almost didn't go down cuz it was already so late.. but i couldn't stand being late in giving my building fund so i just went down anyway :) didn't regret it one bit! hahs.
felt really happy when i slotted the envelope in :D
it's something on the inside that really stirred my heart so great,
don't get me wrong, it was more than the amount, it was my promise to God that i kept :) it's abt honouring your word to the God you say you love.

it should have meant so much more to you if He is your Father,
if Church is your home,
if Pastors are your spiritual parents...

ah, the team is calling me already.
see you guys real soon! :)

2008-07-31T02:46:00.007+08:00

the time reads 3am & i'm still struggling to finish all my work that's right before me. arghhh. nevertheless, hardworking attitude will pull me through.

tmr i gotta be in school by 7am?? 8am?? gotta prepare for PITCH preliminary rounds, so not hyped up for it at all. FOP FOP, where fore art thou FOP? i'm an eager beaver.

today went past really quickly, cept' for the part when i got lost in aljunied/kallang trying to locate cedar girls school :\ crap man, totally had a revelation of "no infomation is better than wrong information" when several pedestrians directed me to all the wrong places.. i was so sure i did my 2.4km NAPFA while trying to find the school... plus the weather was sweltering hot i literally melted into a puddle of goo. so not cool at all, pun intended.

anyhow, walked abt for an hour before help came along in one simple telephone call with alot of complicated directions that totally confused me. took cab in the end anyway, tsk. maybe one day i should just buy a street directory & carry it ard with me, srsly. can't always get lost in puny singapore, it's so noob can.

BUT BUT BUT nevertheless, everything else is so fun cuz i got to spend time with anna & she's the total opposite of me! she's a 6-pointer, HATES to miss lessons, perfectionist in everything (like seriously everything!) etc etc. was just strategising how to reach out to her & yknow what? i think i'll just send cherie hahaahs. that's why it's called a STRATEGY what right??? :P

i've got so much to say but i guess i shall reserve it for another day.. (whoa rhymes!) it's too funny & if taken out of context, plus consequences will be dire for the pple involved.. so i shall hold it back until the day i feel like saying anything.. ha i know, so irritating right?? thanks ^_^

okay pointless entry because i didn't post a picture, neither did i talk about anything interesting to change your life, or something funny to make you laugh. so sorry man, why don't we do a switch & you entertain me instead?? post smth funny on my tagboard, if it makes me laugh i'll treat you to smth nice :)

P.S/ REMINDER TO ALL, TODAY IS 31ST, THE LAST DAY FOR BUIDLNG FUND, PLEASE PROCEED TO THE RECEPTION TO HAND IN YOUR ENVELOPES KAY, THANKS MUCHIES.

oh & becuz i ran out of pictures to post of myself, i decided to post pictures of my people instead.. HAHAHA. so these are pics of alan, andy & xinwei like wht, 2 years ago..?? now now now, don't say good things i never share with y'all ah! :D

THATS ALL, REALLY. TATA! :)

dream teamers

2008-07-30T01:04:00.003+08:00

DREAM TEAMERS FOR YOU :)

btw, if you were wondering..
the 13th name, MARY... i don't have a MARY in my CG.
MARY is actually YOLANDA.
i have no idea what inspired her, Jesus perhaps??
anyhow, she wanted to be called mary & called me sally because i'm her friend =,=

we had a mad msn conference at 1am & trust me, it was plain madness.
as with all other msn conferences, everyone was talking at the same time & the words were moving even faster than the credits you see after a movie.
i like the cell group how it's so funny even when everyone else is sleeping :)

alright that's all i wanted to say for now, it's really a nice feeling being in a team of people who dreams with you; people who have idealisms just like you do.

i've heard many good news about all the people around & it makes me happy to know you're doing well. we're all rooting for you no matter what :) i see a group of newer people pledging loyalty to God & hoGc & Psts & it stirs my heart greatly. the next generation shall be better.

went back home today dead tired, tmr is round two & the day after is round three.
i'll not KO by friday becuz it's FOP :)
TGIF is what's on my mind right now.

hope to see you guys real soon, missing everyone badly over here in mugger-land.
the rest of you guys, study hard & let's show everyone what an ACE-SMILE looks like.
fyi, it looks like that :D :D :D :D :D

gdnight y'all,
sending you much love from derbyshire road.

p.s/ hey there wanyu, thanks for tagging! :) you're such a funny girl, no wonder you're alan's sister hahahhs he must have influenced you in one way or another! :) anyhow, hope to see you real soon alright?? glad you enjoyed yourself in church! :)

2008-07-29T11:37:00.007+08:00

it's early in the morning & i'm smiling so happily hahahs.
yesterday was a great day, i had fun with the usual bunch! :)

went out with mum to go eat din tai fung @ wisma & it was yum yum fun fun! :)
jamie's recommendation: CHILLI CRAB XIAO LONG BAO!!!
the chilli crab juice bursts into your mouth as soon as you take a bite, awww-some!

mummy wanted to eat her thousand layer cake which i almost died eating..
it was the ultimate killer please, the cake was so big & fat!! :\

chill crab xiao long bao is the bombxzxz! :) DIE DIE MUST TRY!

met up with bel & jiayi after that at the scene..
didn't do anything to my hair cuz i didn't know what i shld do with it.. hahs.
bel looked like her sister, rachel, after her haircut though!
& jiayi looked so much neater with her blow-dried hair hahaha, lucy liu is always so pretty :)

left them shortly after to meet the usual bunch at huishan's house!
we watched REMEMBER THE TITANS & it was a really good show!
shared abit a lil after that & then they shared as well... :)
those who haven't caught the show should watch it man,
it's definitely worth your two hours.
after everything, a couple of them went for supper nearby & i headed home, only to find a lil surprise awaiting me...

whoop dee whoop this is awesomely awesome awesome to infinity! :D
the sashimi rocks! *wink wink to andy & ivan* ;)
aww my gosh i'm such a horrible friend.. hahhs anyway!
we're gonna be eating sushi buffet with a big bang this sunday!
if you wanna come along just let any of us know okie!
it's gonna be real fun, i promise!!! :)

returning back to reality.. i have school until 9pm these few days.
maybe if you're nearby ngee ann you can pay me a visit becuz 9pm with school mates is seriously not fun/funny at all.
i'm bursting with excitement for friday & i can't wait, becuz of FOP, becuz of Psts.
let's all really pray for Pastors and Charleston the next few days..
for anointing, boldness, confidence.. they'll really impact the nation man!

wednesday & thursday please be nice to me like how monday is :)
thank God for all the people around me seriously.
yea you you you you you :) :) :)
all the people who help me to lose track of time & things around me.

i stayed up till 430am last night researching on the titans & other war movies,
& tht is so rare; you would never expect me to stay up doing things like tht.
but i guess sometimes some things do catch our attention here & there,
we get so fascinated & we wanna find out more, not satisfied by the little that we know..
last night was just one of those nights :)
it was a good night though, felt a great sense of satisfaction by all the findings & all the information i've dug up from under the ground, hahhs.

anyhow, i've been faithfully updating my blog & i think it's a good habit to have.
i shouldn't make pple come to my blog & see the same old posts & same old pictures all the time..
yeah, i'll make a conscious effort to update whenever i can, you should too :)
just look at alan & andy, they update their blog everyday now! wooo :)

alright alrighty!
thanks y'all for reading till thus far, my lunch is calling out my name so yay!
check back again tmr for more juicy updates k, see you!

2008-07-28T04:54:00.000+08:00

three strikes & you're out.

yesterday after service i watched huishan play badminton with ivan & it was so fun!!!
it's not the competitive kinda game whereby one person always want to win,
but it was almost like a team sport when both of them kept serving back & forth & even when they pushed the level up, it just became a more exciting game for us to watch hahahhs.
i'm convinced that the entire CEG should start playing sports so i'm gonna implement a sports day for us very soon! :) :) :) look forward to that alright!

ANYWAY! it's confirmed, i'm moving house!!!
my new home is 100m away from netwon circus, bravo! :)
it's small enough for my parents to move about in when they get older,
big enough for me to have my own space for the CG to come in :D
so since it's a win-win situation, i happily agreed :) :) :)
reservations to come to my place will be first-come-first-served basis, HAHAHA.
priorities do go to the usual bunch of people though :D

i'm excited about the whole thing cuz i get to decorate my whole room again!
& my garden as well :D :D :D hooo yea, i got my own garden wahsh.
it's a penthouse unit btw, i'm not getting a house anymore :)
happy happy happy because i forsee countless of stayovers already,
& late night supper @ newton circus too!

alright i'm going to meet jiayi & isabel & felicia to cut hair @ wisma now!
then leaders meeting later wooo :) awesome!

don't give up, keep fighting your discouragements!
God is with you, i'm with you, the whole team stands together with arms locked.

our lives, for Your glory.

2008-07-27T04:16:00.005+08:00

hello faithful readers of dotdotdottt! :) hahahs
i'm currently in church together with lynette colin samteo evonne jieru ranford darryl !
wayyy cool time check 4:45am & i have a meeting with dom @ 830am!!!!!
i'm so excited about everything just had a mini meeting with colin & samteo planning for the CEG & you're gonna be so excited for yourself if you're in the CEG hahahs.
as a matter of fact, colin sent out a mass sms @ 415am & it's about our teeny weeny secret!
awww i love working in a team, it's such a ball of momentum, we just keep going & going...

just now the whole grp of us trooped down to geylang to eat pigs organ soup.. srsly!
it's sucha nice feeling being around the pple whom you can just be yourself to.
& there's a phenomenal power in teams like the team i sat around the table with.

i like how Pst Ed said "we do life together" just now during svc..
that really shook me up & awakened my inner senses!!!
that was exactly what i wanted to say in my prev entry!
it's all about doing life together; it's all about growing up together.

i'm so prepared for a breakthrough in my life,
& i really thank God for all the people around me who's just constantly building me up.
Pastors, dominic, lynette; my leaders are so amazing.
the other leaders have been really encouraging as well & i've got so much to learn from them.

alright it's getting late, i shall go pray & then catch some beauty sleep!
thanks for reading hahs. i took 5mins to type this can!!!

p.s// i'm still having my awful sashimi craving & it's eating me up that i can't taste it anywhere near me. hhahs. okay soon soon, alan & andy pls set up a sushi restaurant or smth man. i love sashimi, you should too :)

2008-07-26T10:38:00.003+08:00

i want to proclaim this to you:
i LOVE my life, i really do! :)

woke up this morning feeling so happy about everything,
i think being in heart of God church is special.
i don't know how to put this down into words,
but there's a certain moulding that takes place in your heart,
& once it's done, you become a product that's so different & unique.
but importantly of all, you become so happy :) :) :)
there's a joy in your heart that you cannot contain.

i may grow up so differently from all my peers,
pouring my heart out into all that i believe in,
yet nothing feels like a sacrifice,
instead it feels like a previlege.
i won't take this for granted, hoGc makes us special.

looking around at the CEG makes me smile.

the two sisters beryl & mabel are the coolest funniest sweetest; seeing how mabel just offers to treat beryl so many countless times makes me smile. i love seeing them do things together, i love seeing them serve God together. there's a power in siblings doing things together yknow?

watching the two brothers linus & darren play badminton together yesterday; they hardly even come to church or leave church together! but yesterday as i sneaked a peek from above, i saw the two brothers playing badminton together & couldn't help but smile to myself.. i love seeing siblings do things together. can't wait for darren to be serving somewhere soon :)

desmond and daniel has been the most faithful brothers; coming week after week, doing everything they can.. i remember the day desmond told me he had a surprise for me before CG, & guess who he brought?!? his brother daniel! that day was so awesome, seeing daniel worship right next to his brother... it can happen for you too :)

fiona, felise, michelle, jeslyn- the four sisters in church!!! you girls are amazing, you girls are unbelievable. i feel so moved everytime i share about the four of them.. fiona singlehandedly brought all her sisters, it's so sweet to bring your siblings to church, & have them stay right here at hoGc with you.

& of course we have so many more potential stories coming up..
how teng brought her sister last week together with her mother for AE..
& andy brought his twin brother benny last week !!
& how after CG's spiritual adoption yesterday, alan went home & his sister agreed to come to church today!!
God is moving, He really is moving in this place..

yesterday we left spaces in between each person in the CG & we went spiritual sightseeing for abit.
i saw my brother in there with us, i saw your sister yolanda, i saw your sister felicia, i saw your sister kaye, i saw your sister alan, i saw your brother andy, i saw your brother huishan, i saw your brother weiliang, i saw your sister clara, i saw your sister abigale, i saw your sister howteng, i saw your brother huimin.

gotta have faith in Him :)
God is for you, He is for you & your brother & sister.
& if God is for you, who can be against you?

2008-07-24T17:11:00.003+08:00

alright let's make this quick i'm in class now but i feel like blogging.

thursday is exercise day with the family.
so i went jogging with my parents today & we ran like mad people.
nah they didn't, it was just me.
i couldn't stop smiling when running, just picture that man. madwoman.
aww i love feeling healthy all over again, i feel normal now. like my primary school days when i was so much fitter.

after that we all went over to united square to gulp down macdonalds breakfast. yummm. :)
it was a good start to my day, trust me. good food is really the key.

on the way to jog & back, we saw about 5 beetles in total..
not the insect beetle but the volkswagen one hahahas.
it was very pretty both daddy & i enjoyed car-watching together.
finally something in common other than soccer. hahs.

i then started to pour my heart into studying cuz i was due to have a class test at 2pm.
(shall talk about the horrible trauma i got from it down this entry)

anyway, so while studying, my sister called from aussie & woah, i had a nice long prayer with her over the phone.
yea we prayed. for the family, for the new house, for everything. :)
it was sweet, thanks jiejie, i was blessed, hope you were too.

mummy got me chicken macaroni for lunch & it was real yummy.
i wanted to be sweet like her so i made her a sandwich with like UBER ALOT OF TUNAAAA cuz she lovesss tuna!!! :D
i know it's nothing compared to her macaroni, but it's the thought that counts right! :) :) :)
heh the look on her face was really priceless when i told her i made her a sandwich lol.

alright so i scurried down to school & it was good.
i love the journey to school.. took the time to pray instead of reading my notes cuz i wanted some time with God.
that intimacy with Him was great. gotta be this close everyday :)

okay on a totally separate note.
daddy msged me just now during class & this was how it went.

dad: if you like the beetle, i will get you one.
me: hahaha don't need :) i want to save money. thanks anyway daddy!
dad: i thought you want me to buy a car for you.
me: haha i more sensible now already.
dad: that's a consolation. sometimes as parents we want them to be prudent and not to spend lavishly on luxury items.
me: haha yea i know ;) i'll stick to bus and train until i earn my own money. hehe.

anw, class test was bad because everyone finished the paper in 5minutes.
okay some took longer but generally the paper was a killer we all felt so lousy after that.
but oh wellll, moderation is the key. if we all do badly, then they'll carry us up together too! :)
always look on the bright side, think happy thoughts remember???

meeting with Psts last night was great, learnt some stuff that were really invaluable.
ae was great, now we just gotta carry out all our plans :)
learnt some other stuff as well, guess the people around us really determines alot.

:) okie, i took like 10minutes to type this. not too bad k. your turn now.

team spirit yo

2008-07-22T09:36:00.003+08:00

A&A has been pestering me to blog using the quote "it only takes 5 minutes to blog" against me.. so here i am blogging about my super exciting life :)

monday was a really fun day for me :)
i love mondays because it's my sabbath & yet i still feel strangely productive.
went down to causeway point to meet A&A & ivan..
super funny luh i went down to jurong east thinking it's where causeway point was..
LUCKILY when i was at raffles place ivan called me to ask me where i was,
then when he found out i was going in the OPPOSITE direction, he told me to hurry get off the train.. HAHAHA. so i went back in that same direction i came from & the whole journey took 1hour! :)
amazing amazing. darren calls me a fake singaporean :\

so our initial dreams of sakae sushi was shattered when our dear alan protested against it & plus the buffet only started at 3pm :(((
so we headed to pizza hut instead and aww my gosh, i am still craving for sashimi right now. hahah.
the pizza was not the best, but the company made up for it :)
listening to ivan talk about charleston, jianming, leonard, samfoo, fengxu etc & their ex-northbrooks days were just plain hilarious, how i wished i was in northbrooks too!
andy told ivan to serve him, alan took out all the pineapples from his hawaiian pizza, and everything else was funny.
we watched videos on ivan's phone & we saw how ernest was really meannn but we still laughed along when we saw nicholas screaming & laughing simultaneously.
benny was duper cute too when he looked into the camera & gave a twist & a YAY. haha.

after that we went our separate ways..
andy rushed back to sch, ivan went down to church, alan went down to find benny at peninsular & i went down to marina square to prepare for my meeting with the leaders :)
hmmm then shared with them what's on my mind; what's on my heart..
& then we brainstormed abit for presentsss aka project secret aka mission impossible.
as usual, all these was at our fave hangout place, cafe cartel! :)
ate alot of bread (cuz its freeeee!!!!!) & then talked alot also.

when samteo arrived, everyone else left (not on purpose but cuz they had to)
hung ard with her & talked about the life of a CGL & it's expectations..
while waiting for colin & flea to come back to city hall,
noel called me asking me to go watch dark knight at cine.
didn't head down cuz i was thinking abt project secret hehehe :)
so we all sat at the carpet area of raffles city until we were all sent home.
& everything was so sweet. i like how i know we're a team & we're all in this together..
tht even when other pple decides to back out & leave, we'll never be one of them.
cuz yknow there's no turning back already, the only way to go is forwards & we just keep moving ahead & conquering new grounds...

we are a team.

jamie
yolanda
huishan
beryl
mabel
desmond
alvin
weiliang
benjamin
kaye
linus
clara
jorine
howteng
melissa
eunice
alan
andy
xinwei
felicia
huimin
viknesh
abigale
su-en
cherie
jerlyn
tracy
fiona
felise
pollyna
xueni
cassandra
darren
daniel
jade
gurvin
samteo
charmaine
gwendoline
jamie k.
carol ann
chester
christine
kenneth
colin
marcus
ernest
larry
chiweng
roy
kevin
kelvin
gabriel
chengming
james

yupyup we are a team. :)
a team is always around for each other; we don't recognise pang-seh & we see our position in the team so we don't MIA all of a sudden thinking that it doesn't make any difference in the team with our absence; we don't just take but we give as well; we work hard together but we play hard together after that; we fight to stay in this team because we know our roles & we assume responsibility for it; we cover each other's backs & don't badmouth or backstab; we protect & we stand up; we are loyal & faithful; we have a common goal & a common vision; we love the same people we dislike the same things; we understand each other because we have the same thoughts & we flow.

that's our team for you.
that's team spirit for you.

durex dare campaign

2008-07-17T01:54:00.006+08:00

PR presentation today was not too bad :)
finally we were working together as a group!!!
pulled through as a team, & definitely learnt alot abt teamwork, hahs.
nothing much to update about, it was a whole lot of slogging..
we stayed at the atrium doing work like nobody's business,
while shariffa was happily taking pictures of everyboday.
trust me there are so many pics that it's so scary.
i saw one with myself looking like some sick kid on the block & i decided not to post it hahahs. not too good for publication uh.

but other than that, life is good yes it is!
mummy's promised me to come this sunday, so pray hard she doesn't back out again.
daddy said we'll move out in a few mths time & i'm pretty not ready for the extra work like the packing and unpacking and the renovation and the buying of furniture.

jiejie if you see this, i hope everything is alright at your side. i heard abt the news from mummy.. don't worry i will be by your side if you need me & you don't have to feel horrible whatsoever, i still love you, you're still my beloved sister! :) study hard, i believe you'll do well.

korkor is having hell week in camp right now.. praying for him cuz i want him to come back in one piece & i don't want anything bad to happen to him.. mummy's real worried & she can't stop worrying ever since he went in, esp with the recent events of NS men dying.. hur. pray for my brother too if you can, i love him too much :)

alright everyone brace yourself & keep yourself sane in prayer. He is there & you know it. i don't know how else to end this but i guess i'll just say "God works according to your expectations". that was one thing that hit me hard & made me pitch it so much higher.

my mum will be saved. (no i won't backspace this and delete it cuz i know she WILL be saved.)

:)

2008-07-13T03:42:00.004+08:00

my friend sent this photos over to cheer me up & boyyy, they are so yummy! :)
love fireworks, love love loveee it! :) :) :)
i bet if i was there watching, it would have put a greater grin on my face.

it's really so pretty.
the first thing that came to my mind was how great God's creation can be.
it's just mind-blowing & yet so amazing at the same time.

discipleship class with Pst How was awesome, we all cried buckets loads of tears.
it's just one of those moments you get so upclose with your Pastor & you just get to see how real everything is.. that is so sweet :)

gotta keep your idealism, gotta know what you're doing & why you're doing the things you're doing..
it keeps hitting me & thoughts keep running through my head all the way till i'm back home..
counting the costs & knowing it doesn't pay to be idealistic,
yet the heart still burns & desires to stay idealistic the way it is.

the world is practical, they go after money; they say money is everything..
but then living in idealism would cost you something, knowing you might lag behind the rest at the start but then still chasing after your dreams..

what exactly do you want to do in the near future???

i think Pastor Lia puts it so aptly when she said "the clearest time of your life is when you're a youth".. that was when we all had dreams of what we wanted to be & all that we wanted to do.. scientist, doctor, teacher, missionary..

now some dreams have faded away, some have died.. some has just caught onto the simple four letter word called LIFE & start running after $$$$$..

is that really all that is to life? money, fame, success???

ah, something for you to think about :)

as for the rest of us, let's anchor ourselves deep with something that holds us down in Him, knowing we can never ever give up, neither do we look back once we put our hands to the plough. put yourself in a position whereby you won't have a choice to let go of what you're doing, because you just can't stop when everything else is running.. once you're there, you tell yourself to keep going cuz there's no other way out.

Pastor How says it so well when he mentioned how at the beginning when he started the church, he was carrying the vision of hoGc in his heart but after years & years of carrying the vision, the vision is now the one that is carrying him on...

so, do know that i'm with you, & we're all with you.. i'll look out for you, so don't you worry, we'll all stick together in this race. people may think we're foolish or stupid, but we know what we're doing is worthwhile & we know that AT LEAST WE HAVE DONE SOMETHING WITH OUR LIVES..

don't live a life of regret. God is a God of second chances, but you gotta know that once the timing of God passes, it passes, it's never gonna come back again, so think wisely what you wanna do with your life. it's your life & no one is going to choose the pathway for you to go. simply cuz you've grown up, & you've got to learn to start making decisions for yourself.

so, what decision are you gonna make today? where do you wanna go? :)

ecp

2008-07-11T12:02:00.000+08:00

i wasn't lying when i said we had loads of fun at east coast :)
those who missed out really missed out man! hahahas.

2008-07-06T01:46:00.005+08:00

hello everyone! :)

remember Pastor How was mentioning about Pastor Josh Kelsey blogging about us?? :)
here's the link to his blog!
http://www.change.org.au/index.php?page=Blog
do pop by and take a look at the amazing things he said about our church!
indeed we are one very special church, those who just come & go thinking we're just ANOTHER church is so wrong, you're missing out man..
you ain't seen nothing yet.

better treasure what you've got, i seriously believe with all my heart that heart of God church is the BESTEST church in the whole wide world.
we've got everything, seriously, we've got EVERYTHING!!
nvm what you think... even if you come along telling me that there's another church out there that is better, i'll still stick to hoGc all the way.
i'm not moving anywhere else no matter what & i know this will be where i am for the rest of my life.

don't treat your home so lightly, you only have ONE home, recognise that fact.
when you call a place your home, you don't leave just because you feel like it, you have built relationships in there, you've got emotional attachment to that place, you've got memories & experiences.. so it is really more than just a building.

oh i pray you get that right..
a church is more than just a building, ESPECIALLY HEART OF GOD CHURCH.
you don't come & go as & when you like just like that.
a church is a place full of relationships- with God, with your Pastors, with your leaders, with your CG/churchies etc..
you gotta appreciate things, be grateful to people, treasure what you've got..
once you leave, you're letting go of everything that's in your hands.

alright so that's all i wanted to say.
the next time you have foolish thoughts flooding your mind, think twice.
we can't stop people from leaving, but we always welcome people back with open arms.
our front door is always open for you, so don't miss out, we really want you back with us.

don't hesitate any longer, by the time you make up your mind, our church is already a church of ten thousand.

2008-07-05T10:20:00.003+08:00

yknow what constitutes a happy night?

having dinner with lynette, jiayi, yolanda @ aljunied's steamboat.
coming back to church to hang out.
having the chance to talk to Pastor How & Pastor Lia, even if it's just for abit.
seeing d1/d10/d11/d12 people all over church.
talking to gabriel yeo & seeing him smile so happily :)
finding out that gabriel bought a packet of rojak for the CG & when the sauces leaked, he quickly went to wash the satay sticks for us [awww :))]
seeing how cherie & jerlyn stayed back to help fiona with the GS notes.
walking to the bus-stop with alan, beryl, & jiayi.

i can go on in my life like these forever..

2008-07-04T00:16:00.004+08:00

it's the everything.

yknow i'm still very puzzled at how some people can just turn their back on all that is done & act as though nothing has happened. you just deny all the experiences that you've gone through & carry on life as per normal. that is so sad. everything doesn't mean anything to you anymore & & i'm not being emo here or what, but i treasure relationships, so try and get me right, i'm not emo. seriously, why can't people appreciate what they have more?

today as i was busy scurrying from the living room to the bedroom to the kitchen and back, the song "assuredly Yours" suddenly came up & the presence of God filled the whole room, just like that. it was such a tangible feeling, & it had managed to stop me in my footsteps, i couldn't go anywhere else, i just wanted to stay and dwell in His presence cuz i felt like He was really close to me, it was a tingling sensation that ran through me so gently, but then, i felt like He really understood my heart towards this matter.. alright, just leave it in His hands aye.

i spent some time with my mum today & it's just so sweet how she thinks so much for my sister & my brother & my dad & myself.. everywhere we went, she would point out "oh your sister said she wanted a jacket the last time.." when we were at zara.. afterwards when she saw the floral shirt at tommy hilfiger, she said "this was the shirt your sister wanted to get.." & there are so many other examples.. but yea, it's sucha sweet feeling that comes to your heart.

met lynette for a short while today but learnt so much from her :) being a SCGL is a totally different ball game, yet it's such a thrilling experience, you just know you cannot do without God in your life. it's like how i heard from sam about the powerful follow-up she had today.. it won't be powerful if He didn't come, it's that desperation from within that you need Him so badly & you would just do anything to have Him around in your life, in your CG, in every part of you, in everything that you do.. i wish i could explain to you clearly how it all works out, but i can't. & that's the beauty of it all, you just go unravel the mystery of God yourself :) go on, and be very amazed.

tomorrow i'm going to eat with lynette & jiayi & yolanda & tht makes me very happy :) it's the ex-D2 members!! hahs oh gosh such nostalgic memories.. we were so funny back then, going through everything together.. remember the meeting we had with dominic on the rooftop of YMCA next to the swimming pool?? aww my gosh i will never forget all those memories.. ahaha anyway, we will be steamboating at aljunied so it's no doubt gonna be realll cool :DDD

alright i'm going to sleep now because there's school in 4hrs time. i shall wake up with a smile on my face because it's FRIDAY. TGIF TGIF TGIF!!! :)

oh yea, last thing i wanted to say is how alan & xinwei got J.CO donuts for Pastors :) real sweet. d1 will forever remain a sweet & loving CG, that's our trademark i guess..? hahs. oh yea, and food also :) & thanks to clara for getting me the egg & honeydew puddings, & alan&xinwei for the remaining donuts you guys left for me! :) i seriously love every bit of d1, love how you all are always oozing out with love for others! :) keep it going!

pssst. colin, i've heard about you & all your sweet actions too! :) awesome leader you are, so proud of you.. shall blog more again in my next post if i remember! hahs. but yea, roy is real lucky to have a leader like you.

alright i'm off already, goodnight & goodbye.

2008-07-03T09:40:00.000+08:00

let's welcome our new bodyguard to d1!!! :)
hahhs colin is cool, yea he really is..

and then you have the bunch of people who never leave no matter what.. :)
friends come & go, but we are different, family of friends STAY all the way.

the picture you saw on the previous post was sat's people.
this picture is sun's people.
so if you're wondering why we are always taking pictures,
it's always a different group of people!!! :)

anyway, another reason why we are so photo-fanatic is because we have this very awesome photographer in our CG!
& her name is XINWEI!! :) :) :)
all photo credits to her man, she is the best!

alright, meeting with dominic yesterday was realll good :)
seriously felt like i had increased in my knowledge of His word.
& the team of CGLs is really growing.. can't wait for us to have 100 leaders.
i remember how God just spoke to me about becoming a leader of leaders,
that really hit me because it was exactly how lynette is like.
& i wanna be just like lynette, so those words never really left my heart.
yesterday, God just dropped the words "there shall be no lack of leaders in My house" into my heart again.. & i was so encouraged :)

as for the current batch of leaders, we gotta continue working as a team man!
it's always been about teamwork & you just got to see yourself being part of the team.
things just won't be the same without one leader & we all support & complement one another.. so don't have the mentality that even if you're not around now means we'll all still be able to carry on doing what we are doing.
we are a dream team, know who you are in the team.
everyone plays a great importance, know your identity with us.

alright, yesterday i slept at 6am because i was rushing my work & report out, but i still managed to wake up on time, thank God :)
& i still haven't got a reply from my internship company regarding me taking leave for two weeks.. so i'm really praying hard man.
i reallllly wanna go to London with Pastors!!!
pls pray with me, i dont wanna miss this opportunity to spend time with Pastors also.

mum has been real nice, i woke up this morning to a nice bowl of chicken macaroni,
that was enough to satisfy me for breakfast & i'm all ready to start my day! hahs.

with loads of prayer of course.

deeone and gab

2008-06-30T11:34:00.005+08:00

i know, i know, you've seen them so many times already right? hahs.
but somehow you just never get sick of seeing their faces.. :) :) :)

i told myself that i die die also MUST blog about GABRIEL..
why oh why?
GABRIEL is the coolest guy, the simplest.. everyone loves him.
so this was what happened..
yesterday before zone restructuring meeting, we were all waiting outside the MPR.
& when everyone had started to move in, we spotted gabriel sitting at the computer outside the MPR & he seemed busy..
so colin & i went over to check out what he was doing.
& GUESS WHAT?!?!
he was actually fixing an extra 256MB ram into the current 256MB church computer so that it can now run at a much faster speed! 512MB!!
upon further questioning, we realised he is leaving the ram in there for good!!
PERMANENT, he's not taking it back!!
he just wants the church people to enjoy using it at a faster speed & without any hesitation, he just took the extra ram from his home & added it to the comp in church!
& yknow how i thought that was so sweet??
no one was watching him, no one even knew what he did, he was just an ordinary guy..
but he wanted to add to the church, he had a heart of giving, he is just so simple..
he's just like David in the backyard.. no one was watching him, but he just kept doing what was right, he stayed faithful to these things..
the next batch of people who uses the computer wouldn't know it was gabriel who made it faster, they would just be surprised at the sudden increase in speed..
i bet if we didn't see him fixing the ram, he wouldn't even tell us that he added the ram to gain credit for it.
he wasn't going to be awarded a prize or some special mention for going that extra mile for something that didn't belong to him, BUT HE STILL DID IT ANYWAY.
ahhh, we all love gabriel so much :) :) :)
he makes us so proud of him, seriously.

by the way, if you're wondering how he looks like,
he's the last person on the right in the second row.. :) :) :)
next time when you see him, do remember to say HI ! :)

that's about all i wanted to share, hanging out with gabriel makes me so happy :)
he is so funny, yet so pure.
everyone should get to know him!!
gabriel gabriel gabriel.. let this name ring in your head :)

ALRIGHT. meeting the leaders later at cafe cartel AGAIN!
if you're around the area at raffles city, you can drop by & say hi hahhs.

which reminds me.. that day i was at raffles city with my mum & we bumped into roy tang.. hahas. it was so funny.
my mum thinks i have a ton of friends because every time we are out together, we always bump into my friends, hahahahahaha. wait till she comes to church man :)

kay luh, i blogged for today, i feel so happy :)

P.S// ANDY, NOW IT'S YOUR TURN TO BLOG!! WAHSHSH.

2008-06-24T11:46:00.001+08:00

HI EVERYONE ! meet D1 ! :)
38 people came for CG on friday & we were squeezing so badly in MPR2 that it was so funny :)
there were loads of unexpected people & i just know God is really doing a great work in the CG..
wished so many others came also but it's all okay cuz God can still touch them in His own ways so tht you & you will still be convicted.

ah, life has been good. met the leaders yesterday & they are sucha funny bunch.
howteng is so funny but we still love her so much, yah we really do okay. ahhas.
jerlyn & fiona our new members are the ever-ready bunnies who everything also can one, they are so willing, they are the best :)
cafe cartel is our permanent meetup place & we eat their bread like it's free, becuz it is really free!!! :D
oh yes, & we all must really get the donuts for Pastors soon alright!!! :) DEAL.

here are some pics we took.
check us out, we are so cool. :)

we all went to esplanade's rooftop to pray for abit becuz i just wanted all of us to get our week right by praying on the first day of the week & just committing everything into His hands.
so yea, found a ulu pandan corner & sat around this mini fountain & started praying.
gotta get into a lifestyle of prayer man, praying is oh so important..
meetings shall not be meetings alone but everything we do shall have a touch of God in them.

received jiejie's email bout her reading my blog & she was so touched, awww :)
didn't know you were secretly stalking me huh, hahaha anw thanks for the mail!
hey next time you can just tag me yknow?
you are such a joker :)

lectures today were fine, cept' that i couldn't stop eating & my friends were all staring.. but other than that, i've been a really productive person hahas.
stayed back in sch till 8+ to rush our research work & now i'm gonna slog a lil' more cuz there's presentation tmr!!!
come on guys, let's ACE ACE ACE it!!! :)

everyone who's having tests/exams, study hard !
MUG HARD after that we can all go out & parteeeee!!! :)

family

2008-06-22T01:08:00.000+08:00

meet my family. spiritually adopt them :)
the past two days have just been loads & loads of quality time with the family because my sis was going to fly back to aussie this morning.
had dinner at the club & we all packed ourselves silly with jap food! :) yummm.
took a few pics so she can bring it back to aussie with her & stick it all over her wall. hahs.
slept at 4am++ because of a certain unbearable pain in the stomach.
dear sis woke me up the next morning at 6am!
two hrs of sleep!!! you gotta be kidding me, i was so exhausted.
anyhow, showered & went out to the airport for final breakfast with the sis..
we ate fried chicken & fried fish & fried fries & fried bread & fried biscuits :)
all that fried food for breakfast only, at like don't know what unearthly hour.
walked around T3 searching for some nice places, ended up getting lost (?!?!?)
while we were walking we were talking abt everything abt our LEE FAMILY & the feeling was so sweet :)
breakfast was incredibly funny & sweet too, we talked abt the past & how naughty we used to be & how much wrath we incurred from the parents..
but now we've all grown up already & we're such nice children.. everyone had such a good laugh.

& not in any height order, here's another happy family pic :)
we are all holding hands & that's so nice, esp. dad & mum :)

oh & before i forget.
before breakfast, sis & i asked dad if we could pray for him, for his parkinsons, & lo & behold, HE AGREED for the first time in his life he agreed!!! :) :) :)
we laid hands over him & prayed, i fourth-dimensioned it, we took turns to pray, i almost cried, it was the moment i was waiting for..
& when we thanked God for everything & ended the whole prayer, dad said "amen".
i was so happy, i was so happy, i could have just jumped off my chair, i know God was working something in his heart. i know his healing is on its way already.. :)

before sis left for the departure gate, she gave each of us a hug & a kiss, & it was then i started to miss her so much. her nonsense; her craziness, her noise; her presence; her everything.

i miss how she went on a makeup course & came back home & taught me how to put on makeup base.. i miss how she would be discussing with me about dad's healing of his parkinsons.. i miss how she would be so concerned for me everytime i came home late.. i miss how she would be sitting at the computer table surfing the net every time i came back home & she would ask me how my day was.. i miss how she would turn on the radio to class95 or yes933 & force me to listen to them with her through the night.. i miss how she would pounce on my bed when im sleeping & plant a kiss on my cheek then giggle & run off (yea my sister can be rather childish... hahas)

so yea i miss her quite terribly right now but i know i'll be seeing her pretty soon again so i shan't think abt it too much lest i become an emo kid heh. anyway, she told me that the next time she returns to spore, she'll bring back her ang moh boyfriend, so that's quite exciting. she calls him "blue eyes" & that is quite an affectionate name i would say. haha.

okay i guess i just wanted to say that my family is so cool i really love them so much i don't know what i would do without them :)

... & you can probably tell by now that im quite a family girl so if there's anyone who wants to get her family saved, i'll probably be the first in queue haha. but seriously speaking, i'm really gonna adopt my family in my heart & keep praying for them. i long for the day we all go to church together as a family, to heart of God church of course :)

see that picture up there? one day they'll all be in hoGc, you wait & see. i have so much faith, i know it will happen. just keep praying, your family will be saved too.

a monday with d1

2008-06-17T12:02:00.003+08:00

i spent my monday with the usual funny bunch :)
samteo, yo, cherie, flea, huimin, huishan, beryl & our latest member jerlyn! hahs.
initially, there were five of us & we were spice girls.
then it became six of us & we were steps.
then, we moved on to seven & we became s club 7.
now i can't even keep track.. hahs.

we went to cafe cartel at raffles city & talked about everything silly & we probably mentioned a little about you & you too, who knows? hah.
it's so fun hanging out with them, you just know these are the people you grow up with & the people you don't mind being unglam in front of;
the people whom you can tell an unfunny joke & laugh to yourself & they will give you this "it's really not funny" glares & yet everyone can still laugh out loud together;
it's these people who talk about the weirdest things, yet you feel that you can somehow relate to them because you are a part of them;
it's also these people who wouldn't mind eating like a pig in front of each other cuz we all love food & we all eat like siao zha bo together;
but in the midst of all these, yknow this is the group that pulls through with each one hand in hand, encouraging each other in prayer in love in strength;
so there's setbacks but so what, we know we'll make it through cuz we've been praying we've been working hard together we've been doing everything we can as a team.
it's a circle of love, a circle of prayer, a circle of friends.

after our long hangout at cafe cartel, we trooped down to granny's day out! :)
yo was modelling all the clothes over there & she looked awesome!
it was such a funny time for all of us, & yo was just so sporting, she tried on every piece we passed her! hahs.
gab came to look for us at peninsular & we all trooped down to esplanade for dinner..
the food at makan sutra was great & the band at DXO was okay. (gab secretly prefers his mp3 though.. hahhaa)
so it was a romantic night under the stars with a whole bunch of funny people..
& gab is sucha pure & simple guy we all absolutely love him :)

bumped into e'zone when i was at the bus-stop.
such a refreshing sight to have seen garrett & wendy & a whole lot of familar faces..
singapore is so small & our family is getting increasingly bigger.. its all cool.
room to grow in this land indeed, we're expanding our territories.. :)

so this was how we all spent our sabbath.. :) it's just a simple affair, not too much of a fireworks event or some big bang outing,
but it's these little bits here & there which makes it all fun to hang out with you guys..

& thanks you all for taking care of me when i was having a disgusting fever in the middle of nowhere & had to return home earlier.
i had fun, i really did :)
i like you all & i like the dynamics of d1, blood sweat & tears together guys..
we'll always be a family of friends :)

2008-06-15T20:45:00.008+08:00

d1 loves BM so much & you can really tell tht from the smiles on their faces.
oh yea, sons not servants ! :)

aww my gosh i miss my Pastors already.
wendy, nicholas & myself cabbed down to changi just now to sent Pastors off.
all the leaders were there too & i just loved spending that last few moments with Pastors & Pastor Joakim & family.
it was one of those moments i really treasure, to just be there :)
rinnah hugged me before she left too, so sweet :)
i'm so glad wendy & i made the decision to chiong down to the airport.

i just had my father's day dinner & it was good.
my mum insisted on homecooked food so korkor & i had to resort to da-baoing food back.
& since it was daddy's day, we had ginger chicken & tang yuans (think, yi jia tuan yuan).
anyhow, food was great & we were all happy people :)
so glad to eat dinner as a family, before my brother booked in again haha love quality time like this, it's really rare nowadays man.

anyway, after dinner, i grabbed the polaroid camera to take a family picture! :)

got our neighbour to help us take the pic can you believe it?!?!
my dad was happily enjoying his massage from his fave uPilot, so he told us to gather around him to take the picture..
& yessss, he didn't bother to wear a top cuz he says that's wht he looks like =.=
oh yea my dad is really cool anw :) love him!
okay God, the whole family will come to Christ realll soon, i can see it already.

yknow how yesterday, Pastor Joakim prayed for all of us.
& right there and then when i fell under the power of God,
God spoke so many, so many things to me.
one of which, was that i will bring my parents & brother to Christ.
& another which said my dad will be healed.
hearing all these kinda broke my heart & i couldn't stop crying,
cuz these are the precise two things which are on top of my prayer list.
oh yea, you know i would do anything to get my dad healed & for him to place his faith in God;
for my brother to come back to God & to have faith in Him all over again.
images flashed past & my dreams were enlarged completely,
it was completely mind-blowing i was just overwhelmed by God's mind.

alright, now i'm really tired plus i got school in a few hours so i'm gonna knock out real soon yea.
tmr i'm gonna be real cool & go to school & add value to my grp discussions,
yes that's what i always do anw, HAHAHA :)

hokays, conversations with msn people earlier made me slightly happier & chirpier.
some people can really make your day :) ho yeaaa, they have that magic power.
like how d1 is having their own msn conference now & i'm just watching everything they say without uttering a word.. yea they are a super funny bunch.. :)

p/s Pastor How spoke to me about London & i can't stop thinking about it ever since, it's been bugging me non-stop, i really really want to go!!!

k, fourth dimension.
goodnight y'all. :)

2008-06-11T08:58:00.003+08:00

it's 9am & i gotta leave the house at 9.30 to head to church for follow-up at 10.30 with the CG.
then i have BMT after that till 6pm & then it's free & easy to talk to more people !
hiphiphooray, today is gonna be awesome!

yesterday was rockin' good!
we had 30 people who turned up for CG prayer meeting!!
first time we had so many people.. in fact even more than the usual 20 for worship session.
THIRTY !!! but tht's not enough let's go for more next week! hahs.
we prayed & we prayed & we prayed, can't begin to emphasize the importance of prayer in my life right now.. :)
the presence of God was there, but not just that, there was the power of God too.
in my mind, i saw people going up on stage to share their testimonies about God's miracles.. that was so powerful.

at the end of everything, we celebrated chester's birthday & i was so happy to see a new friend's birthday being celebrated with the usual heart of God church culture! hahs.
OH YES, WE HAD NEW FRIENDS FOR PRAYER MEETING CAN YOU BELIEVE IT???
hahaha wow, God you are so powerful.

there's CG tmr! 1230 to 230! come if you can yea! :) :) :)
those who are reading this, don't say nobody tell you ah!
it's gonna be another great session & you'll miss out if you're not around!!

the leaders have been praying & there's a move of God in D1 ..
i smell the new wave of revival coming up already. wahhs.
oh, and a mini update of the schools in d1.
Raffles is catching up real quickly with new town! hahahaha.
KCP & peicai are climbing up as well, so that's all good.
wooo come on guys, enlarge & expand your territories!!

all these are good, been praying for another thing that's been on my heart too.
ahhhh God give me that give me that !!
everything is moving really quickly & that pushes us to work harder & not slack.
hard work hard work, gotta love it!

school has been great, watched two movies yesterday in class & those were good too.
one was drama-mama & almost made me cry, the other was uniquely different & made me laugh & cringe altogether.

all in all, everything in my life has been great! :)
though it's really packed with 1001 things, i know i can manage this because my leaders have done it before & they came out with a sweet victory.

gonna chiong to church now, i know life is just gonna get better from now onwards..
gotta LIVE life.

:) BYE!

andyalan

2008-06-07T11:59:00.003+08:00

hello! meet my new friends!! :) :) :)
they are all in the back row..
oh yea, vik is part of my new friends too hahs.
mysterious vik oh you can be so very funny, you joker.

so there is leslie & bryan who looks super alike,
plus andy & alan who are pro maplers!
oh yea, leslie can beatbox & dance superduper well,
please approach him for example if you want hahs.

rocks rocks rocks!
had so much fun with the whole group of them man!
wished you you & you were there. yea all of you luh..

bumped into ivan & f2 at cathay & we all ate rochor tau huay together..
later on we bumped into d7 at PS food court.
& then samwong & his CG, & then melanie & mandy.
wow what a day. :)

hmmm i just had a very exciting call with samteo & hui.
aw my gosh it's so thrilling to see it going up up up...
you guys are the bestest :)

andy's blog is so cool you all should pay him a visit & leave him a tag.
http://www.andykingofall.blogspot.com/
he has a twin brother named benny,
i can't wait to meet him & see for myself how alike they both look wahash.

apart from all that outings, i met lynette in church on thurs night to settle some stuff in the CG.
i love meeting my leader & setting things into place.
she's great & i love her so much :)

went for dinner with dominic & lynette & a whole bunch of d3 ppl & lisa.
STEAMBOAT @ ALJUNIED it was.. hahs we all ate super alot!
the meatballs there were somehow the highlight of everything great.
meatballs meatballs meatballs. eesiong & i love them!
josh, eesiong & i kept joking abt BECOMING one & rolling home cuz we seriously wiped out ALL the meatballs over there! hahs.
we sat there eating and enjoying the jaychou songs coming from the karaoke lounge next door :)
so cool man, we had a mini sing-along session right there & then!

went home that night & got a nice lil surprise! :) :) :)
all my pink sugar coated biscuits separated into another box away from the green yellow white ones :)
tht's very sweet & yknow when someone does that for you, they really love you hahs.

okay i ought to head to church now,
huishan just texted me to tell me that she's sharing her testimony today & she's panicking abit but i replied her "HAHAHAHAHAHA" that's all.
ah i'm so mean but yknow she's so strong & so full of faith & success right now nothing can get her down, absolutely nth!! :)

d1's the bestest CG one can ever be in, i love them so so much.
don't really have so much time as before to go on every outings with everyone,
but my leaders are doing such a great job i gotta salute them man! :)
thanks to all those who are just helping in one way or another,
the teamwork is so strong & the support is there, let's keep going..
be not afraid of hardwork but love it ! woo !

gonna go get prayed up now before heading to church! see y'all !!!

mont fort

2008-06-03T02:59:00.002+08:00

it always starts from a radical thought.
so that day, we did something really crazy.
at 1030pm, yolanda, viknesh & myself decided to head down to hougang to surprise mr kailun!

we cabbed to his place but realised he wasn't at home!! :\
so we left him a note and placed it at the flower pot outside his gate..
lo & behold, when we took the lift down, we saw mr kailun!!!
we panicked, & shut the lift door on him HAHAHA.

to cut the long story short, he brought us to find andrew,
and with andrew, we shouted across the hougang streets for james to come out..
soon enough, james came over with a bewildered look on his face,
& justus walked over from the other direction equally shocked at our presence.
oh, how we all love all those scary surprises that throw you off your feet.

all is cool & everything was so amazing :)
we spent a crazy time outside 7/11 chilling & hanging out..
cracking lame jokes, making fun of each other.
hahs they are really cool dudes man.

amazingly, james & andrew came back for service on friday..
justus came on sunday.
all that's left is mr kailun!!
BUT I HAVE FAITH!
he shall not be so lazy anymore this coming weekend!! :) hahs.

the mont fort guys are all fun people to talk to,
& best of all they can click so easily with just anyone,
just love how i can be "frenz4eva" with them ahsha.

it's 3am, i shall stop surfing friendster & go to bed.
pastoral meeting was mind-blowingly awesome,
i love my Pastors; they are the most awesome Pastors in the entire universe!!!
:)

goodnight everyone, see you all realll soon!

p.s/ on my way out from the world book fair at suntec, i bumped into YY (E3) and YiFan ! i felt really bad at first because i didn't know their names yet they knew mine!! :\ yikes. BUT that just means that the church is growing bigger and bigger and that's all good! i gotta remember more people's names! hahs. everyone add me on friendster please. then that'll really make things a whole lot easier hahsh. alright, i shall make an effort to remember other people's names from other zones from now onwards!! :)

okie dokes, there's Dzone hangout tmr, i can't wait to hear my leader preach the word of God! :)

amen, goodnight peeps!

loyalty

2008-06-02T12:46:00.004+08:00

took this on our way back from the prata shop at 1am :)
purposely chose this pic cuz yo looks WAYYY cool ! :D :D :D
TOO cute, can't resist it! :)

mmm on a totally separate note,
i just wanted to say how much i really appreciate all the times i get to spend with dominic & lynette..
really learnt so much from them all these while under their leadership :)
i wanna be a duplicate of my leaders, they are the man & woman of God i wanna stay loyal to for the rest of my life !

loyalty is such a strong word, yet it's a word often thrown around & cheapened down.
when i say i'm loyal, i stick to the people who has brought me up and sowed into my lives and i don't consider pledging allegiance to someone else.
you can only be loyal to one side and you know you got to be loyal to the people who were first there for you and loved you for who you are.
& even if someone else comes along and provide you with something better, you stick to who you are loyal to because that's what loyalty is all about.
when you're loyal you give yourself no choice to choose, you disregard being emotions-led and hop on to the other side of being will-led.
loyalty comes hand in hand with commitment & you can't choose to have one without another.
it's better to have loyalty because people treasure loyalty, & you only can trust someone wholeheartedly when you know they are loyal to you.
the line that separates outsiders & family is that one word- loyalty, it's one thing to say i like you but it's another to say i'm loyal to you.
i'm loyal to my Pastors and i'm loyal to Dominic and Lynette, i'm loyal to heart of God church.

alright it's been a whirlwind of emotions here and there, i just feel more convicted now about this watered down theory of loyalty.
i can't stand divided loyalties and if you're one of them, you don't stand with the rest of us over here.
gotta make that decision in your heart who you wanna pledge your loyalty to.
i've made up my mind & i know it won't change no matter what happens.
yea THAT is loyalty.

many many things have been happening but amidst all of that, God has been great!
many of my prayers have been answered & i love Him so much for that.
yknow He's real when He whispers "have faith in Me" & BOOM! a miracle happens.
my God is so cool & you gotta try Him out before passing judgements.

korkor bought me chocolate oreo bubble tea from each-a-cup on friday & i wasn't around to thank him but i really love him so much for all the surprises.
plus on sunday he bought me donut factory donuts before he booked into camp again..
ah, i can't begin to express how fortunate i am to have such a sweet brother :)

thanks for reading till thus far, my teacher gave me an A for poetry writing and plenty of thanks goes to chiweng for assisting me here & there.
also, thanks for the double chocolate donut factory donuts, mel :)
& the ramly burger i was secretly craving for, daniel :)
my CG loves food ten times more than an average singaporean & that's all cool.

gonna go to suntec now to cover the world book fair event ! :)
can't wait for pastoral meeting tonighttt!

2008-05-28T21:14:00.002+08:00

i'm so excited typing this post because today was a very very good day.

today is a good day because it started out abit awful but He turned it around for good, & that is all that's why it's good.

life is so simple don't need to be so complicated.

it is also a good day because the sugar rush worked and i got very high & my presentation was uber powerful, i rocked it upside down & loved every bit of it.

whoever thinks of incorporating the child seats with the luge rides? mixing fun with safety and increasing the sales as a result, wow i love novel ideas & it's fun to get the sudden spark of idea that electricutes you.

finally, i see the PR side of me coming through. hahs. ideas ideas, creativity juices need to flow through me like never before.

i told peter i work very well under pressure. that's becuz i started brainstorming only bout 7mins before presentation time. i love challenging myself & i love it when i pull through with Him in my hand.

i was so proud of my ideas i scribbled down "jamie, you are sooooo good" in my notebook with my 'BIG bang idea!'. then i cancelled my name away and replaced it with a bigger, more outstanding word. it was GOD. hahsh.

i love my life man, i love living life on the edge, just right there with Him. it's a do or die kinda lifestyle but i'm loving every bit of risks involved because i just learn to trust in Him. & every time i let go, He never fails me.

so my life has been more or less filled with the capital S word- SCHOOL. tmr there's an excursion outing to suntec city to check out how awesome the exhibition halls are. they said smart casual but they didn't say we couldn't bring those cutesey water bottles we could sling over our shoulders! we're gonna rock the outing & be very very cool media students asking intellectual questions even the facilitator cannot answer.

Pastors will be back tmr, & that means my leader will be back too.. & that means loads & loads of anticipation plus excitement. time flies, & i'm so glad i'll be going to church tmr. secondary schools camp will rock, & rockin' fun it will be for sure. i say, be there or be square, you don't know what's in for you till you experience it yourself!

loving life has never been so easy before :)

having faith!

2008-05-21T01:50:00.000+08:00

so maybe all you need is a little faith in Me, God says.
that jump from point A to point B,
that leap of faith from a mustard seed, to one that moves mountains.

i long for a faith that moves heaven & touches hearts of man.

that little faith in that someone that he/she can make it as long as you believe,
that little faith that all mistakes can be forgiven as long as character is grown;

that little faith in a teenager whom people just deem as a trouble-maker,
that little faith in God that He will do a work in the people's hearts.

maybe sometimes we just want so much to scream to someone else
"c'mon, have some faith in me man!"

maybe all over the world, people are just looking for encouragement in someone else,
they just want someone to tell them that "i believe in you, go for it"

today, why don't you put your faith in someone & start believing in them?
empower someone, trust in them when nobody else do.

if Pastors can believe in the first batch of leaders when they were just 9, 10, 11 years old, you can do the same.

stop picking out their flaws, stop dwelling on their problems.
all things are possible, all of them can be leaders.

go against your natural tendencies,
step onto the supernatural highway.

put away the magnifying glass of problems,
take out the crystal ball of possibilities.

when you look at your people, don't see a problematic teenager,
see the hidden gem, look for their unfound potential.

you never know if you might unearth the next charleston, dominic, garrett, ivan, roy, jianming, lynette, fifi, daniel..

stop judging,
start believing.

i believe in miracles,
cuz i believe in You.

2008-05-20T08:56:00.004+08:00

went to sentosa yesterday & it was UBER fun ! :)
so happy to be spending time with the zone after a very long time..
played games, got high, went crazy, played more games.. hahhs.
last but not least,
a few of us sat LUGE & became awfully high cuz of the adrenaline rush hahahs.
it was mad fun, i love it :)

after that we hopped over to food republic for dinner & ate ! :)
huishan shared her fried fish soup with me :D YUMMS.
then the other CGs left & we hung out abit longer under the stars..
took (silly, very silly but cool) pictures & other people copied us & did the exact same thing!! hahs. we had fun trying to come up with something new..
so d1 will always be d1.. & i love you guys for that :)

bus-ed 57 home with huimin & vik, we were talking nonsense all the way! :) :) :)
vik is veryvery funny, but he laughs at my jokes too,
so we're kinda on par with one another hahahs :)

pastoral meeting now byeeeee! :)

hear it issss :)

2008-05-18T02:38:00.003+08:00

while waiting for ivan to finish up his mass post,
i decided to blog a short entry myself :)

no pictures for today because i already posted so many of myself earlier,
next entry i'll post pictures of the CG, so look forward to that k :)

few things on my heart;

-yesterday before my brother went for his airforce interview, i called him to my room & asked if i could pray for him for his interview, & he agreed. you have no idea how happy i was to just be able to hold his hand & pray for God to be with him through his interview. i was so thrilled to hear him say "amen" when i ended the prayer, & as he walked out of my room, my heartbeat resumed to normal & i couldn't help but tear a little. God, i really want him saved.

-more than my brother, today God dropped my dad & mum's names into my heart during worship, & i couldn't stop crying. all of a sudden, i felt the burden, i felt the compassion He had for them, & i just kept praying & praying. i want my dad to get healed of his parkinsons, i want my mum to stop being so short-fused all the time, but more than that, i want the both of them saved & planted in heart of God church.

-the way D1 worked so hard to come up with the "ting ma ma de hua" MV is seriously heartwarming, i'm so encouraged, really. i look at them & i sense the love they have for Pastors, the way they were so willing to step out of their comfort zone, learn the jaychou song, learn a few dance steps each, & co-operate with each other. i'm so proud of each & every one of them :)

-working with the sentosa planning team makes me laugh so hard, all of them are so different yet i have so much fun with them. it's amazing how some of them can be so funny & lame & crappy at the same time- johncelin, shihao, fungqi, hongrui, yuting !
yea & it's really fun to bomb them with nonsense things & scare them abit, wooo~

-i'm really sleepy right now, woke up at 8am for 930am meeting with dom today. prayed for an hr & fifteen mins non-stop, built up innerman.. he's strong & muscular now i bet! but yea, faith was there, experienced Him through my prayers today, it was powerful. can't believe that is only 1/20 of what my korea star prays everyday. no wonder he's a star & i'm not! hhahs. gotta be strong prayer warriors man, amen.

-so many things coming up & i'm stretching, stretching my faith stretching my capacity stretching my limits.. i can almost go crazy if you were to throw laksa curry sauce on me right now.. hahs okay i'm joking i'm talking nonsense okay. it's the time. time check: 315am. i'm so cool i waking up early tmr morning & hopefully do some housework for the rents! :) i'm sucha cool daughter, where else to find huh! :)

-i bus-ed down geylang today & saw the big red signboard that screams lor 9 beef kway teow. i'm so gonna get that for mum real soon, she loves it, she's been craving for it. filial piety is calling out my name. i'm such a cool daughter. hahhas.

-last thing, How Teng did such a great job with her lights today, so proud of her. :)

faith & confidence.

oh yea & i had a revelation about how people never dared to dream big because they lacked faith & confidence.
hearing Pastor speak about how he used to dream of preaching in Bible school, that can only happen because he had faith.
people dream small dreams because they have no faith- in themselves & in God.
why don't you start having faith & dream bigger dreams today? :)

hear me smile ! :) :) :) :) :) :) :)

mini shoot

2008-05-15T16:48:00.005+08:00

we went on a lil' mini shoot & these are some of the loot we got ;)

here's the girl behind the camera... :)

i wish i could do this everyday instead of all the FYPs..
they are killing me bit by bit ughhh.
so we had two quizzes today & i had 10/10 for one & 5/10 for the other =.-
nvm tonight i'm gonna chiong & pia my heart out & wake up with TGIF TGIF TGIF !!!

tomorrow i'll post a happier entry, promise.

on a sidenote, working with johncelin & shihao on the sentosa outing is just hilarious. i wished you were in the same conference i was in with them.. hahas. they are such funny people you gotta get to know them man.

zone F service is in two days & i'm so looking forward to that, i can't wait for Red Rain too in a week's time, & there's the secondary schools camp too! i'm so excited about all the things that's coming up in the following weeks to come.. now i just gotta get all these crap outta the way & the weekend is here for me to embrace and delight in for 48 hrs before i go kee siao again.

but for now..
God oh God take a hold of me,
all over, all over.

d1 !

2008-05-13T21:44:00.008+08:00

SUNDAY WAS HEI SHIRT HUI DAY !! :)

i love d1! :) :) :)
i love how sporting everyone can be!
look, we're ALL in black!
how cool, how cool :)
dynamics in d1 is fantastic, love it! :)

oh yea, & sunday happened to be mother's day too,
so we brought mummy to bakerzinn to have a mother's day lunch! :)
it was so packeddd!!!
crazily packed our food took ages to come man! :\
it was so difficult to get the woman to take a pic for us too luh,
ended up everything was just -,-''
we were trying so super hard to hold our smile for such a long time in that exact same position it felt like primary one photo-taking all over again.
check out our spastic faces HAHAHA i can't stop laughing at us.
(okay fine, i can't stop laughing at MYSELF hahahas)

BUTBUTBUT, my warm chocolate cake was AWESOME :D :D :D
(points to the warm chocolate cake in the picture!!)

... that's all for today!

back to work manxz.
i blogged this entry in like, 10mins?!?!
PRAISE THE LORD. hahshs!!

OH OH OH,
& lynette came down to ngee ann today!
TOTALLY MADE MY DAY MAN! :) :) :)
so happy just to catch her at the bus-stop before she left!
happy shalala i love my leader! :) :) :)

MORE PICS AGAIN TMR !!!
check it out check it out! :D

fri + sat

2008-05-12T16:02:00.005+08:00

okie ready get set go !

sooo, new town + jorine came down to my school on friday & it was a good good day! :)

went to eat prata with the CG at night after worship session!
& we all hung out till late becuz MID YEAR EXAMS ARE OVER WOOHOO !!! :) :) :)

they ordered so much food i felt like we were wasting food!
but it was way cool how close-knitted we all can be,
sitting happily around a prata shop's table & bonding bonds :)

spam you with happy faces :) :) :) :) :)

i'm such a happy person i don't know why also, maybe it's because of all of them :)

so yesss. we ate prata till very late & decided right there and then that a stayover was a pretty good idea ! :)
so, being a decisive bunch, a stayover it was!
flea, huishan & beryl, plus myself stayed over @ dhm's house!
what a cool clique we are ;) hahs.

dhm cooked for us & her ah ma is super cute!
i think dhm was really worn out from the cooking cuz she was the first to KO hahas.
the other funny girl went to dhm's room too & plonked herself happily on the bed,
so it was just huishan, beryl & me left, super romantic please :)
slept at 4am because we were busy watching some really cool stuff ;)
(winks at huishan!)
next to KO was beryl hong! she took the entire couch for herself!
guess where me & huishan slept manxz hahas.
anyway, slept for 2/3 hrs then we all woke up!
all= the last three to sleep= jamie, huishan, beryl
the other two girls were still in the room !!
hahs, powerful man the two of them.
i headed to church for meeting with dom & huishan & beryl left for home!

saturday was such a cool day for coolios like me & you! :)
we actually stayed in church until very very late.
in fact, it was the first time we had so many D1 ppl staying till so late..
those people are so cool they actually see church as their second home already :) hahs i love how radical they can be :)

& by now you shld have realised,
the last to leave always gets a picture from me! :D teehee.

more PICS tmr! :)
BM time now!! :) :) :)