today was just one example of that one thing i never knew how to fight.
it was a battle that was torn in between myself but more than that,
i genuinely felt broken on the inside.
fight for me as i've fought for You.
jealousy & insecurity are two very powerful words.
honestly it can cause one to do very crazy stupid things without much careful thought.
blindfolded not in the eyes but in the heart,
we end up hurting the very people who once loved us & cared for us.
without the bad, you don't see the good.
without the sweet, you don't taste the bitter.
it's so much harder than i had thought.
but once i pull through this i know i can tell the world a story.
there are some things you just never ever do,
there are some things you just never ever let go of.
just because.
so at the end of the day,
it really pays to be idealistic.
& to even start guessing what i'm talking about is minimally impossible,
except the one who knows all things.
hang on.
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